Together for 2 years most of those months after HS have been an LDR (I'm 18 soon to turn 19 she's 20, also first gf). I realized I put up with a lot of crap from her consistent lying to just disrespect and telling people she was single in the past. So I felt betrayed and told her how I felt. I was a bit rude when saying it so I bought her some roses/chocolate/ and a teddy bear. She seemed happy so I thought we could work on things getting better. No she uses the "lets be friends" right after receiving the gift which was over $100 which made me pretty annoyed Then suddenly blocks my cell no. and instagram. So I didn't talk to her for about 20 days to give her space to think it over and to see how I really felt about her and possibly getting back together I don't know.

After that time. She started doing immature things. Blamed me for everything. I started feeling like I was being destroyed from the inside out. And noticed I felt bad not talking to her but I felt better than I had in a very long time by NOT talking to her. And I honestly still don't know how I really feel about her. Its now Feb. and I tried to end things on good terms and get her on the phone to settle it nicely. But instead she calls me and hangs up twice before I can answer. So the next day I called to see why. She ends the call on the second ring. At this moment I see this relationship is truly dead (and I still don't know why I feel somewhat bad about this) So I message her on ig slightly pissed (she unblocked me later on) and told her since she wanted to be immature, do not ever contact me again.

2 hours later she responded by just saying my name. No idea why really. That was 2 days ago. I feel like saying something else but I don't think that's the right thing to do in my case I know I cared about her her and she says the same but she just treated me like trash. But I still have her on my mind half the time. I don't feel heart broken or anything but I feel indifferent like I don't know what to really do sometimes now. I probably left a lot out since I was trying to make this as short as possible.

Time to leave her alone, and put this behind you my friend. Block her number,as you have been blocked. Should have done that a long time ago.

You're doing the right thing. You'll think about her a lot, but don't contact her. Find something constructive to do with your time. Volunteering is a great way to fill your time and do something positive.

Will do, thank you for the advice.

Thanks ill make sure I don't contact her. The volunteering is a good idea, I've been trying to stay busy doing something positive.