[BlueEyedApathy]

I've always been like this. I used to never be that big into dating. I rather flirt than date. But anyway my first love lasted for 2 years, though it was emotionally draining and affected my life big time. Since then I've been emotionally confused with my feelings. I think I love someone but really don't. Don't love someone then think I do and get back with them, later just to find out I really don't.
I blame my ADD on the reason I get bored with men so fast. I've had some really nice guys which have lasted a few months but I started to feel bored and suffocated so I'd breakup with them and move on.
It seems the more I get older the faster I'm getting bored.
I can't seem to last a few days now.
I'm in a relationship right now. We had a rough start but it's going good now and we're hitting that month mark. I was sure that I really liked him but while talking to him, it suddenly hit me that I don't love or really like him more than a friend. I'm bored with him. I try avoiding him. I kind of developed feelings for another person which is a lost cause... I think that I'm in love with that other person... considering they make me cry easily and emotionally frustrated. I spend more time talking to them then my actual boyfriend. But It's the same situation as the 2 yr guy... so I try to distance myself but they easily draw me in.
It's not excitement that I'm looking for. I really don't care about that. I want to be with someone but at the same time I don't. I never want to get married. I'm starting to get bored with relationships all together not just the guys I date.
I'm positive I've been in real love at least 3 times.
2 yr guy.
Run away guy (chased him and when I finally got him he stayed for a few months. It was great. I was sure he was the one, never got bored but then he ran away. Came back but I refused to go back to him because I was hurt.)
And this new person who is my best friends.

I like the idea of saying 'I have someone'. But actually having someone is what annoys me. So why don't I like relationships? Why do I get bored easily? And why do I put more effort in the 'impossible' ones rather than the ones I can have? Am I always going to be like this? What the heck is wrong with me?  

[santhalus]

There is nothing wrong with you, it just sounds to me you just haven't found the right guy yet. If this doesn't seem right to you then maybe there is a conflict you went through in the past that made you behave the way you do towards men..