[Steinheight]

Hi everyone!
I have a very strong feeling for this girl. I am 19 years old while she is 22. We are from different countries and come to China to study language. I first met her in the dorm, once I saw her, I feel a strong surge of electricity passing from my brain to arms and legs. Her eyes obssesses me for many months later.

I tryied to seek more information about her and was informed that she has had a boyfriend at her country. She is very kind, delicated and hard-working. I felt my heart nearly broken and failed to concentrate on my study. No matter what I did, she was always in my mind. I was too shy to even speak to her, and when I saw her, I only greeting in a formal way of my country: bowing (I'm not a Japanese anyway).

Today I got back from my country after Chinese New Year, and I could not see her. I thought she ought to finish her study and therefore permanently left China, heading back to her hometown. For all days, a kind of pain inflicted me incessantly. I stared at the door of her room for a while, desperate, feeling as if my feet had rooted deeply underground.

Is my feeling just a strong affection, or it is love? I know I am following a shadow, it is my first affection for someone! I am not well-prepared for this.

[teastalk]

You shouldn't try for someone who is already taken. It creates unnecessary problems for the both of you.

[neverme]

No this is just lust, not love.

It is exhilarating and heartbreaking simultaneously.

There is no point in following this lust though as she is already in a relationship.

Welcome to the confusing world of lust and love!