[little firefly]

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In December 2005 I met a man at a dance club that I go to regularly. I had no particular interest in him but he kept returning to the club with the hope that I would be there. I thought he was very nice and I was flattered at his interest in me. I consented to go on a date with him and we ended up in a relationship. It was extremely intense and we fell in love rather quickly. We were both married but separated from our spouses. I am of the baptist faith and he is a Jehovahs Witness. This botherd me a little, but I was so in love with him that I dismissed all of my doubts. He was extremely sexual to the point of almost being a nymphomaniac! He explained that his wife had grown cold toward him over the past several years. After being with him for 10 months (during which time we talked at length about wanting to get married) he tells me that he had been wrong to be with me and that he needed to concentrate on getting back in good standing with his congregation, and being a better spiritual leader to his 4 year old son. I was so hurt but understood his convictions. After about a month apart we reconnected briefly, but after 2 months his wife decided to go through with divorce proceedings. Again he told me that he had been wrong to be with me. He felt that he had been selfish and had been unfair to me. For the sake of his son he wanted to try to do things right. He maintained that he still loved me and wanted me very much, and that the only reason he couldn't see me was because it wasn't right. Things weren't able to be worked out in his marriage and they went through with the divorce. As recently as 2 months ago he came to the club wanting to spend time with me. He told me again that he loved me and wanted to be free to be with me. I spoke to him a week ago and he informed me that for the past month he has been seeing his best friend of the past 3 years. According to him they had never felt anything for each other but suddenly she and him saw each other in a different light. He tells me that he is in love with her and that he is very happy. By the way she is not a Witness. I've been left so confused and hurt. I keep asking myself what could I have done wrong? How could he love me 2 months ago and then suddenly not love me anymore and be in love with someone else. I honestly thought I would be spending my life with this man. I need some insight on this. What happened? Did the fact that he is a witness mean trouble from the beginning? Is his new girlfriend heading for the same heartbreak?:confused:

[Lenovo]

Well, for one thing he wasn't necessarily "wrong" in dating you as he put it. Jehovah's Witnesses simply SUGGEST you have relations "within the truth" as they call it, rather than "outside the truth". It primarily depends on the individual who is the witness whether they want to date out of their religion. However, by the sounds of things, it sound like he was simply "using" you for a little more than companionship, which right there is worse that dating "outside the turth." If he claims to want to do things right, and he was dedicated to being a Witness, he would have set his family first, and stopped dating you, rather than constantly going back to the club, to see you. Honstly, it really isn't any fault of yours for wanting to date him, really, its his fault for going on and off with you. So, when you say, "was it trouble from the beggining" in a way it was, but for him, not you. What he is/was doing is/was putting his whole belief in jeopardy, and by doing what he was doing, he could be considered what witnesses call a "false prophet" So, all in all, he is really the only one who is/was in the wrong.

[shygrneyzs]

You are lucky to be shed of this guy. I really do not think him being a Jehovah Witness was the reason for all this trouble. He was the reason, and you too. You had a fair share of the responsibility. When you start something on the grounds you did, I am not sure how much you can expect out of it.

But this guy is a loser with a capital L. He does not know what he wants; except when he wants what he wants, it is okay. But after, it is not okay. Like he committed sin after the fact and no thought to the before the fact.

Quite worrying about what you did wrong, this guy did plenty of wrong. He will continue in it too, like swine wallowing in mud.

[Fr_Chuck]

WEll first neither you or he could be very serious about your faith, since both would not allow going to a dance club or dating someone who was still married. *** esp the Jehovah witness. And both faiths would not allow in its teachings married people having sex with someoe other than their spouse,

So what happened, he lost part of his faith going though his separation and "fell" in love with the first person he went out with ( a very common thing to happen) So after knowing what he did was wrong, he could not continue to be with you, since it reminded him of what he did.

He is now starting his life over with someone else.

You were basically the "rebound" love.

[little firefly]

I definitely agree that he and had both lost part of our faith and were wrong to have started a relationship while both of us were still married, but let me give a little more background info. He and his now ex wife married 12 years ago. She was a "sister" in his congregation. He was 22 when they married and she was 30. He married her because he felt that it was what he was supposed to do. They had never been very close emotionally and after 5 years they separated. He ended up meeting someone else, but it didn't last long and he went back to his wife to try to work on the marriage. 2 years later their son was born, and soon afterwards they separated again. He ended up dating one of his coworkers and even moved in with her for a couple of months. Again things didn't work out and he moved back in with his wife and son. They both agreed that the marriage was over but decided to live in the same house sleeping in separate rooms in order to try to give their son a sense of "normalcy". The last time that the two of them had marital relations with each other was on the night their son was conceived (literally). About a year later he met me. He has a terrible fear of major life changes. He thinks that things should always be the same, so when she finally filed for divorce he was beside himself. Their first divorce hearing was the last week in April and that was when he moved out of the house to live on his own for the first time in his life. His only thought was that he didn't want to lose his son. The first week in May the house that he shared with his wife suffered a major fire. This caused him even more stress. About 3 weeks later is when he started seeing his best friend. In my opinion, when all is said and done she's going to be the one who ends up being his rebound love. With all that he's gone through he found comfort in her friendship, and has convinced himself that its more. I really feel bad about it because she is a really sweet girl and I hate to think that she will be hurt, and not only that their friendship will suffer greatly for it if not end all together. And also, just as a side note, he has been under a psychiatrists care for 3 years because of obsessive compulsive disorder steming from a repeated tendency to fall in love quickly and wanting to move too fast in his relationships (this was something I didn't know until we had been dating for a little while). His wife had even expressed her concern to him that she felt that he was moving too fast with me and that she felt it was because of his OCD. I really feel that's what the situation is now with his new girl.

[stonewilder]

He's a player plain and simple. He kept coming back for something but it wasn't the kind of love you feel in your heart. Forget him and don't be looking for love in bars. Oh and if you really want a guy to take you serious get a divorce first.

[little firefly]

I believe you're right about him being a player. Unfortunately I didn't see that until I had already fallen for him. As far as looking for love in bars, that's not why I even go to that club. It's an 80's dance club and I've been a regular there for almost 3 years. I don't go there to look for anyone. I just go to spend time with the friends that I've made there and actually get paid to do a Madonna impersonation there sometimes. I had not even wanted to go out with him, but all of my friends saw how much he liked me and talked me into it. I spoke to one of my guy friends there and I told him about my hesitation. I told him that I didn't want to risk this guy falling in love with me. My friend told me that he hated to tell me, but that the guy had already fallen. I guess that should have been a red flag right there, but coming out of an abusive marriage it felt nice to be paid attention to. He was the first guy from the club that I ever consented to go out with. I usually make it very clear that I am not there to hook up.

[JoeCanada76]

It is not about denomination or religion here.

The fact is he was not divorced yet, and you were not from what I read. You were both still committed.

Whether it be with family and church obligations. This relationship was not love but a shoulder to cry on and a quick make me feel good session which quite honestly is all it was and I can guarantee it would not last and even if you tried to make it work it was going no where.

Who cares what you think might have happened but I think that you went way over your head with this and need to realise that it was not a true relationship of any sort of love.

So you need to let this go and move on.

Joe

[little firefly]

I really appreciate everyone's input on this situation, I know that all of the heartache and pain that I'm going through right now is of my own doing. In losing him I lost not only a love, but I lost my very best friend, and I think that hurts more than anything. I've always had so much trouble saying goodbye to people. He and I should have only ever been just friends and then I wouldn't be dealing with all of the hurt that I'm feeling now. By the way, I'm divorced now myself. I went through mine last fall.

[talaniman]

I suspect besides thinking it would last, you both got what you could at the time, so its over and move on. Please give yourself a lot of time to heal before you get in bed with someone. Or for that matter any relationship, go slower, and get to know more about them.

[little firefly]

Believe me, it's going to be a long time before I even go on another date with anyone much less start another relationship. I don't want to take the risk.

[talaniman]

believe me, it's going to be a long time before i even go on another date with anyone much less start another relationship. i don't want to take the risk.

When you are over the grief of the divorce, and this rebound thing, you will be smarter and stronger, and happier and healthier emotionally to take that risk, if you think its worth it. It will get better.:)

[little firefly]

I really hope so, and thank you for saying it. Sometimes I feel so lost. It seems so unfair that even though he is the one who pursued me, I'm dealing with trying to forget him and move on while he is happy and in love with someone else. This is a terribly mean and unchristian thing for me to say, but I hope that what goes around comes around and that he finds out what it feels like to be hurt by someone.

[stonewilder]

i believe you're right about him being a player. unfortunately i didnt see that until i had already fallen for him. as far as looking for love in bars, thats not why i even go to that club. it's an 80's dance club and i've been a regular there for almost 3 years. i don't go there to look for anyone. i just go to spend time with the friends that i've made there and actually get paid to do a Madonna impersonation there sometimes. i had not even wanted to go out with him, but all of my friends saw how much he liked me and talked me into it. i spoke to one of my guy friends there and i told him about my hesitation. i told him that i didnt want to risk this guy falling in love with me. my friend told me that he hated to tell me, but that the guy had already fallen. i guess that should have been a red flag right there, but coming out of an abusive marriage it felt nice to be paid attention to. he was the first guy from the club that i ever consented to go out with. i usually make it very clear that i am not there to hook up.

Madonna impersonator, that's pretty cool!
Anyway just don't make the same mistake twice, it's just not worth the heartache.

[stonewilder]

i really appreciate everyones input on this situation, i know that all of the heartache and pain that i'm going through right now is of my own doing. in losing him i lost not only a love, but i lost my very best friend, and i think that hurts more than anything. i've always had so much trouble saying goodbye to people. He and i should have only ever been just friends and then i wouldn't be dealing with all of the hurt that i'm feeling now. by the way, i'm divorced now myself. i went through mine last fall.

Don't be too hard on yourself. I doubt there's one of us here that hasn't fallen for the wrong person at one time or the other and wondered what the H*ll we were thinking. I think sometimes after a brake up we lose feeling and we do things that might hurt us just so we can feel something. Just remember that he is really not worth the pain you are feeling.

[little firefly]

Exactly! Thank you. You don't just fall out of love that quickly. It dosen't work that way, especially since he told me when I saw him two weeks ago that I had done nothing wrong and that he still misses me and thinks of me, and that I had made him very happy.

[little firefly]

A couple of months ago I submitted a post about my relationship with my ex boyfriend. He and his wife had been legally separated for a couple of years when we started seeing each other. He broke up with me after almost a year because he realized our being together wasn't right. He was also feeling guilty because he had become weak in his faith (he is a Jehovahs witness, as are the rest of his family including his now ex wife and 5 year old son) shortly before the breakup I had started attending witness meetings so that I could feel spiritually closer to him. He told me that this made breaking up with me even more difficult. A couple of months after the breakup we started seeing each other again (he had started missing me). This lasted a couple of months until his wife decided to file for divorce. All of a sudden he felt that he needed to try to do the right thing and put his marriage back together. He sent me an E-mail telling me that he didn't know what was going to happen but that he wanted me to know that he loved me and wanted to be free to be with me but that he wanted me to be happy and not wait for him. He and his wife weren't able to reconcile and they started divorce proceedings. Less than a month into the divorce he tells me that he has fallen in love with a good female friend and that he is very happy (I'm thinking rebound). I ran into him outside of a restaurant a couple of weeks ago and asked him how he was. He said he was OK, but seemed almost sad. I told him I was glad and that I really wanted him to be happy he thanked me but seemed to have trouble looking at me. I then told him that I miss him and miss the friendship we had. He looked down for a few seconds then looked me in the eyes and told me that he really misses me too. I told him that I had continued going to witness meetings because I had really found it interesting. He told me he was really glad to hear it and that it was OK with him if I kept him updated via e-mail on everything that's going on. I sent him an e-mail a few days ago letting him know what I've been up to. I also told him that I've kept him in my prayers and that I hope he's happy in his new relationship. I told him too that he should be careful and take things slow so that he dosen't get hurt or end up unintentionally hurting anyone else. Yesterday he sent me an e-mail that said "please stop sending me messages. i'm not mad and i don't hate you. i'm very glad that you are progressing in your witness studies, don't ever stop that. However, nothing you say or do will change things on my side. if and when things change i will let you know. until then please stop." Ok, what's up with that. I made it clear to him that I didn't want him back and just wanted to be friends. A couple of my friends seem to believe that by the comment he made of if and when things change I will let you know, he's thinking and possibly hoping that I'm going to be waiting in the wings for him if and when his new relationship falls apart(I'm not!) from everything I've been learning about Witnesses I have a feeling that he's already being made to feel guilty about being in a relationship while going through a divorce and not only that but he's with someone outside of the faith (thats how it happened when he was with me) does anyone else get this feeling? I've already decided to just move on, but I just need some outside opinions on this. I really feel sorry for his new girl. She only ever knew him as just a friend and has no idea what she's gotten herself into.

[GlindaofOz]

First things first - I have friends who are witnesses and you do not date or marry outside of the faith. It is not heard of. Unless you are willing to convert THEN date you are looking at an impossible road. If that religion is not your cup of tea then I say move on. Witnesses tend to be very wary of couplings outside of the church.

[Ash123]

My 2nd shortest entry to date:

R-U-N

[little firefly]

So does that maybe mean he's hoping that I'm waiting for him since I've been studying and attending meetings regularly?