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Was surprised to find an email from my ex this morning. It has been 5 months since we last spoke. That was the phone call I talked about earlier in this post. That happened June 1st. I never...

I have suffered from depression for a long time. I was on medication for a few years, but I stopped taking it shortly after the final breakup. I think it would be good for me to start taking it...

It's hard to take her off the pedestal when you fear you'll never find someone like that again. She had a look that made me feel so comfortable and close to her, the way I could interact with her was...

I was feeling better when I was focused on the future... then when something didn't work out as I had hoped, I went right back to the past.

I don't know exactly what re-reading this whole thread would do.

The problem is, I don't know how to reflect on the last 5+ years of my life without getting sad, since the last 5 years of my life...

I just don't know what the "right" way is when I can't stop thinking about her and all the good moments we shared together.

I just moved into a house with two friends so I always have something to do, but my mind always goes back to her. I hate it. I'm so depressed and no longer have the desire to live. Why do I do this...

Hi all. I just feel so broken and depressed now. It's been 6 months and just when I thought I was getting better, the same intense pain is back. After that sob message I called her back and left a...

Honestly, looking back on everything, I realize our relationship was toxic and there were a lot of red flags, even though there were numerous times when things were great. The bad outweighed the good...

She called and left a 3 minute sob message about how much she misses me. How she misses me more than anything. And how she hates how things turned out. She was crying the whole time. She said she...

I guess that's what I will do then. Thanks!

After he email which I did not respond to... she called twice in the last week. The first time she left a message saying she was calling to see how I was doing and to call her back, the second time,...

Well its been a month since I last posted and thought I would give an update. My emotions have been day to day, sometimes I feel happy and excited about life, other days the complete opposite.

I...

It just sucks because it shows me that every thing is on her terms, when she wants to call, she'll call like its no big deal. When I want to talk to her, NO, that isn't possible, she says no.

She...

I will go back to NC, but its impossible not to wonder why she decided to call me if she was scared. She could have called her mom, her dad, her brother, her grandparents, anyone of her friends,...

Well of course I went against what everyone advised, as I often do, and I broke NC with a short email just mentioning how I heard about the tsunami warning and that I hope she is OK. I got an...

I think I may have figured out why she called. She moved to Hawaii last month. I just heard today that Hawaii was supposed to get hit by a tsunami. Maybe that's why she was calling? I don't know....

Just sitting here a minute ago and my phone rings and it is her. I didn't answer it and she left no voicemail. Over a month of strict NC up to this point. Not sure what she wants or if I want to call...

Just thought I'd pop in an offer a little update. I've been in NC for over a month now... I broke it a month ago and sent her an email wishing her well but of course, I never got a response, which...

Just got back from my 5 day trip out to Colorado. I thought being out there with the beautiful views and the great skiing would take my mind off her. I thought about her every day. It was so pathetic...

There is no what if. I just don't want to go the rest of my life thinking that she views me like her step father. I never wanted that.

I forgot to add what is probably a very important detail to this whole situation. I don't know why it slipped my mind but it definitely has something to do with my ex's reaction to what I did.
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Why are any well wishes from me automatically not genuine and selfish? Is it really not possible for me to truly want the best for her and express that to her?

So sending an email would really make her feel like dirt? I feel like I didn't apologize enough and I never wished her good luck. I just wanted to say that I hope her move goes well and that her time...

The last couple of days have been rough. All I can do is keep thinking of her. I look at pictures of her and how beautiful she is and think I'll never find someone as sweet and beautiful as her. It's...

Is it OK to cry? I'm supposed to be handling this like a man, but I can't hold back the tears. I break down at least twice a day.

What thoughts will she always have in her head?

Thank you. I suppose it is better to look at the entire play instead of just one scene. I really feel awful for hurting her and I can only imagine that she is having a difficult time dealing with...

After much thought and reflection, I've come to the realization that the reason she isn't talking to me right now, the reason why she wants nothing to do with me and won't let me see her or even talk...

Imagine how it feels to find "The One" and then lose them for good, as I have stupidly done. Now I feel I'll never find that feeling again because she was "The One". I feel there is no other.

Yes, the physical presence of others is such a blessing. I've made sure these past couple of weekends and this weekend to make plans to go out with friends. When you are having fun with friends, it...

Thanks. I'll let you know how it went for sure. I am going to visit a friend out in Colorado. Never been there before so I am looking forward to the beautiful views of the mountains and skiing some...

Yeah, I am trying to keep myself busy and to take my mind off her. I go to the gym a lot and work out which makes me feel a lot better. I'm going on a ski trip next weekend. I'm making sure I hang...

I know it's over, but I can't help still having feelings for her and caring about her and wanting to talk to her. The wounds are still fresh. I'm sure she will never want to be with me again, but I...

It's so hard because all I do is think about her, all I do is think about every good moment we had and completely block out any bad moment. All I do is think about what our life together would be...

And what way is that? Could you please let me know what I should do to heal better than I am? I am really lost because I am still in denial and in so much pain. I feel like healing is impossible.

Thank you. I just pray and hope the healing process isn't super long. For some reason, I feel like its going to take me a LONG time to get over this.

Don't know if I want to call back. The more I think of it, the more I just think saying goodbye will hurt me even more. I don't even know what it will accomplish. It will probably make me more sad...

Feeling sad today. My ex's move to Hawaii next week has been confirmed. I saw photos one of her friends posted on Facebook of her going away party and it made me really sad. I called her and left her...

I know I can't change what she believes, but I just think, in my opinion, its kind of ridiculous for that to be a dealbreaker if you really love someone and want to spend your life with them....

I will try to stay strong. So are you saying I shouldn't do her the favor of taking the dog? I can't have dogs at my place but my parents said they would take care of him.

Also, what are your...

How am I fooling myself? I just said I don't have any hope from this phone call. I know she isn't coming back. However, if I do take care of the dog, that means she will still be involved in my life...

No, I don't have hope that she wants to come back. I know she doesn't. I just don't understand why she wants to ask me for a favor if just a day ago she was content with never speaking to me again....

Well, it's crazy how things happen when you don't expect them to. I was just talking about contacting her and how I feel like she doesn't care anymore because I haven't heard from her. And what do...

regretfullness, like I mentioned before, I feel the same way you do. I didn't think there was anyone else out there that did, but I was wrong. I feel like I lost the "one" just like you did.

Our...

I am committed to the TRUTH from here on in. I know that the truth will set me free and being honest will allow me to have a healthy relationship in the future. I know that lying is no longer an...

No, it's not. I'm just not sure what it means to be fully healed.

Well, are you saying I should never try contacting her? I know that its over and she most likely isn't coming back, but is it such a bad thing to want to reach out to her to see how she is doing? If...

No, I'm not trying to minimize her hurt. I can understand what she is feeling. I guess I'm trying to put myself in her shoes and say that if I were her, I wouldn't cut her out of my life and never...

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Today marks the two week period of NC with my ex. This is the longest I have ever been NC with her. When we broke up before, she was contacting me just days later. As...