All right well, as I wrote in my last post, I'm still in love with my ex-boyfriend, lets call this one Bob. It's been getting better lately though because of NC... even though we talk for maybe a minute every now and then. Overall, I have been feeling really lonely and so I thought I was kind of starting to reconnect with my first ex boyfriend, we'll call this one Frank. I was really wrong. After he made it clear to me that the odds of that happening were slim to none, I figured that I'd make myself feel better about everything by hooking up with one of my best friends. Wrong again. I did hook up with my best friend except it didn't make me feel better at all. I later moved on to another hookup, Frank's cousin. After this, I felt really guilty and decided to tell Frank about what went down, except I'm not too sure he was happy about it, even though he claimed not to care. Now, after all this, I feel gross. I'm the type of girl who only kisses a guy when she likes him. I don't do random hook-ups. Its just not my thing. It only took me two hook-ups to start feeling like I'm not worth more than a sex toy. I just miss the attention from guys, having a guy to cuddle with or to call me baby... even if it only lasts a hook-up. How do I stop feeling that way and start feeling like the only person I need to be happy is myself?

Stop spreading yourself around and spend some time alone. Stop looking for the feeling you want to come from other people. Pay attention to yourself without judging yourself. Find out who you are. When you can be comfortable and settled sitting in a restaurant alone, or going to a movie, or to some gathering of your friends just as you, you will be free and be happy.

Tao

Set yourself some personal goals.
Work towards achieving them.
?
Profit.

Omg, really. To tell you the truth. I really hate you, if my girlfriend cheated on me this way, I would really... well. Even though I have this grudge against you, but it can't be helped. You seem to need a help. So here we go.

Ok, you know how do the guys think about you, if you're acting this way? You're craving for more popularity, so everyone would pay attention to you. Not good thing though. The guy would think that you're easy and they would take advantage of this.

Seems like you don't it this way, just boost your willpower, it's really sad that you're so out of control. If you're like this, you will hurt many people and you'll ended up hurting yourself, sometimes, it will lead you to think about suicide.

It's not about setting goals or not, o realizing that it's bad or good. It's about your easiness. You're really easy. So I hope you know what to do.

Btw, good luck

You need to learn to love yourself before you can love someone else. Start by setting some personal goals and trying to accomplish them.

You are what is called a chronic dater. Someone who constantly needs the attention of a significant other. This is very unhealthy, which is all the more reason why you should stay single until you've found yourself.

Yeah I think I'm going to start with goal setting.
To DevilNam, I didn't cheat on anybody. I hooked up with my first EX boyfriend's cousin a LONG LONG time after we broke up. 3 years to be precise.