Most here know my story from my threads and things have been going great which is why I have not been posting. But tonight it all changed. My son is down from North Carolina where he lives with his dad and he stays with me some during the week and some at his older brothers. Well anyway I asked my boyfriend ( whom I live with ) to show him his llms music composer on the computer like 4 times in the last two weeks. And he hasn't yet. Well tonight the two young boys from downstairs come up and he shows it to them and played on it like an hour. Not even thinking of my son and I brought it up to him. In a agitated mood and next thing I know says to me "Leave, get out". I said what... where? He said "go to fken north carolina and suck his again. I'm not having this defensive crap over you'r kids. Go back to fken him. Leave"

Ummm it wasn't defensive. I told him "I have asked you 4 times to show him ( my son ) the LLMS over the last two weeks and you haven't but you will them." And I got all that?? What the hell was that about?? I don't think I deserved all that or any of it. Then he turns around and his past screw buddy calls they talk like an hour and then go to a game and play together online. And he still is online with "It".

I'm crushed. I'm trying not to cry in front of his mom. I don't feel comfortable here and I can't leave until his dad gets home from work in my car in the morning like he asked me to.

And yes I have said A few ugly things while he has been talking to the ex screw buddy. But I have the right I think. I know now he don't want me to go cause he keeps trying to reach for me etc. But he don't even think what he did and is doing is wrong..!

If he's going to speak to you that way take him up on his offer and leave take what's your's and never let anyone speak in such way. You need to gain some kind of trust suppport even if it's with a counselor of some sort! You say you have kid's girl don't just leave for yourself but think about the kid's too. I think just by reading your post you are avery strong person and you will find away to walk away. Have the two of you been "physical" with each other even once? May I ask how old the two of you are? I read this quote today "why make someone a priority in your life when you're only a Option in their's" when I read this quote I thhout about my past recent relattionship that just ended afew weeks ago and I had to write it down for myself because it's a true saying that I will remember.. I hope you keep us posted on this topic

Well I will say something from a man's point of view. Is he friendly towards your son? Do the talk and laugh about things together anytime? If the answer is no then you were wrong to expect that he would do anything with your son. Now, if I were you, grab your stuff or first,, find some place to go FAR away from this guy. Then grab your things, say nothing and just leave. Do it when he is not at home because you want to avoid confrontation. IF you two are not married or in a binding contract of some kind, get some counseling, find some new friends and get on with your life. I have a step son. He and I are as far apart socially as you could get but at least I have the common courtesy to engage in conversation with him and have a few laughs once in a while.

I have so much on my mind and I am just so tired. I'm mainly here to vent I guess. My life seems like it is never going to get better and I'm just in a bigger hole than what I was. I'm in a relationship with someone much younger than me and I love him so much. More than I have ever loved someone in my life. But it's getting harder for me to accept some of the things he does are just age related. And I have to get past all that for this relationship to work. Ever since the other night with the things about my son that I posted on here he has spent a lot of time with him doing things and talking etc. So all that is good. He just chalked it all up to bad day and his brain was spent.

The sleeping schedule is all wrong. Up nights and sleep days. Ans when I ask him for bed he gets mad and says He isn't a child and I'm not his mom. And I'm not trying to be I just want my man to go to bed with me. I don't want it or like it being a argument every time. And us both going to sleep mad at the other.

I feel as though I go above and beyond in so many things and I tell him the one sided relationship is about over. But he says I'm just selfish. I know he loves with all his heart and never wants to be without me. I just need people to talk to.

I feel you. Its hard to balance your feelings of NEED, want, and giving a partner space and respect. Its down right frustrating when we don't get what we want and NEED! Sometimes we have to take care of our own needs when a partner cannot or won't.

What's telling is you have no friend to talk to who is a good listener because we do feel better after a good vent or rant, even without a response or a fix, or a opinion. LOL, I always have to WARN my wife that a vent/rant is coming so she isn't surprised by the out pouring of deep frustrations that need an outlet.

Wish she would give me the same warning, LOL!! Then I could protect myself. That's what your guy is doing, protecting himself.

Yea venting this helped me a lot. Because I really don't have anyone to talk to so I just go in bathroom and cry but it helped a lot to vent. Thank you for replying.

This is the place to vent and rant, and as you see, you are not alone and never will be with us loonies that hang out here, LOL! Now cheer up, and let the storm pass. It ALWAYS does and gets better.