Hi everyone!
I have a very strong feeling for this girl. I am 19 years old while she is 22. We are from different countries and come to China to study language. I first met her in the dorm, once I saw her, I feel a strong surge of electricity passing from my brain to arms and legs. Her eyes obssesses me for many months later.

I tryied to seek more information about her and was informed that she has had a boyfriend at her country. She is very kind, delicated and hard-working. I felt my heart nearly broken and failed to concentrate on my study. No matter what I did, she was always in my mind. I was too shy to even speak to her, and when I saw her, I only greeting in a formal way of my country: bowing (I'm not a Japanese anyway).

Today I got back from my country after Chinese New Year, and I could not see her. I thought she ought to finish her study and therefore permanently left China, heading back to her hometown. For all days, a kind of pain inflicted me incessantly. I stared at the door of her room for a while, desperate, feeling as if my feet had rooted deeply underground.

Is my feeling just a strong affection, or it is love? I know I am following a shadow, it is my first affection for someone! I am not well-prepared for this.

You shouldn't try for someone who is already taken. It creates unnecessary problems for the both of you.

No this is just lust, not love.

It is exhilarating and heartbreaking simultaneously.

There is no point in following this lust though as she is already in a relationship.

Welcome to the confusing world of lust and love!