I can't be angry in front of my boyfriend. And I never told him when I feel hurt. That is because I don't want to lose him. I don't have the ability to be angry to a man I love.
I already failed my dream that my first boyfriend could be my husband. I almost died when I broke up with my first boyfriend. I couldn't date lots of guys and gain smart experiences. I know I am always a stupid girl.
Now I just hate myself I already love my second boyfriend. If I had a chance to be back, I will not love a person easily.
When my parents let me set up standards for a husband, I told them I don't have standards. Their standards, such as high soci-economic situation, handsome, decent family and education background, are ingored by me. I just want him to be a responsible person and faithful to me. I am a television broadcasting major. And I don't care if later I really become a host while he is just a common worker. I just want him to love me and our kids later and never have affairs.
I was told by my friends that I am cheap and no guys would care about such a girl like me because I always endure. They told me I was not equal in a relationship with a guy.
But I can't break up many times. Sometimes I really want to die. But I have promised my mom that I won't end my life for her. I just regret that I already love him now.

First of all. The Dying part..

Give me a break OK. Every time I read something like that. I just laugh my head off. The idea off people killing themselves disgusts me. And they are pathetic and weak.
If they want to take the easy way out. Then all the better!\

Oh and I have had friends that killed himself, in fact I found him at 4am in the morning hanging. Did I feel sorry for him? Nope! You want to know the reason why he left his 2 kids and wife behind?
Get this.

Because a girl didn't like him. Ha! I couldn't care less about him. I care about the people he has left behind though

My view is. This life should be for people that want to make an effort and want to work hard! You get out of life what you put into it.

Let the weak be cut down!

So don't be sad sack all your life. And stop all that crap about killing yourself
Yuck! Plus! The people that really do it, are the ones that don't talk about it.



On another note :)

I think you should do your best!
And forget the rest hun!

As you know you have no self worth. About you

Not true come on you're a good person and that counts!

Be true to yourself girl. Don't let people walk on you no matter how much you love them
In fact even more so if you love them.
Because trust me

People will treat you the way you let them.

So be true to yourself
And be proud of who you are!

And stop taking advice from people that probable don't even have there own life in check.

You are Asian. Am I correct?

Will your parents allow you to choose a husband, or will they do it for you?