A little history first:

Were together 2.5 years.

She dumped me late January because she felt suffocated. Because I didn't commit even though I did and I was waiting for her life to straighten out- legal issues she has. I told her this and she actually requested we wait to get married.

I tried getting her back and slowly got back into her life as "friends".

I was hoping friends would turn back into a relationship then marriage.

Recently we started to get together to drink and we'd sleep together- no sex. Just sleeping.

We have rubbed lotion on each other after getting burnt at the pool and we have cuddled. I initiated.

We have not kissed since January.


Now here are the most recent events.

I have planned a trip to the mountains in a couple weeks and I asked her to go. She said she could for a few days. This made me happy.

I have access to her email - she knows I do- and discovered that she sent an email to her friend about her attorney and her starting to like each other. She goes on about she can't stop thinking about him and she hopes something happens after the hearing in a couple months. She deleted the email from her sent box then from deleted but there is a way to tell what has still been sent with an application I have. Obviously she tried to cover this up.

I emailed her the other day, telling her I don't want her joining me on the trip and that she is not to contact me ever again.

She replies almost immediately with shock and stating she wanted to join me in hopes of refreshing our relationship almost like teasing me in what I could have had if I didn't email her the bad news.

I reply that I have a feeling she is infatuated with another and she goes crazy. She cuts me down, calling me names etc. obviously she's been caught in a lie. The only thing that prevents me from never talking to her again is the fact that maybe she had a change of heart after that email she sent to the friend and decided to really try with me again.

Any thoughts??

Don't fall for it. Move on. You deserve better. Simple as that.

Her reaction is normal. Why?
Lawyer boy is a POSSIBILITY.. a MAYBE.. She doesn't know if anything will happen with him or not - she just wishes something does.
YOU on the other hand, are the sure thing. You're a safety net she can fall back on if nothing works out. So it would make perfect sense for to tell you whatever it takes to keep you lingering for a little while longer... Women aren't stupid.. She KNOWS you want her.. if she wanted to re-invest into your relationship she would have suggested it long before you even had this idea.
Drop her dude, its not worth it.

I would have just disappeared and let her wonder why.