I am 18 years old and I don't know if I'm going crazy or if I really want this.

I have thought about getting pregnant various times and once I thought I was but I wasn't. And I was both relieved but disappointed. I know what a responsibility it is to have a baby. I've babysitted babies and it is NOT easy. They require attention, time, and love. So I DO know it's a big deal. BUT... when I think about it, it makes me feel this feeling inside I can't explain. A beautiful feeling. I think about holding that beautiful girl or boy and how it would be MINE and I think about what he or she would look like. (because I'm mexican and my 3 year boyfriend is white) and I think about how much closer we would be! And it all seems so nice and great... but then I start thinking about school, my parents... and I say to myself woah hold on now! I just graduated from high school, I'm starting college in the fall, my parents would go nuts, and I haven't found a job! How would I support a baby?! Even though my boyfriend does have a job, I couldn't leave him fully responsible.

And there was another thing that came to mind. I thought about how tired I am of school and how I kind of don't want to do music anymore. And I don't know maybe I'm just getting ahead of myself, but I want to move out of my parents' house and get a place with my boyfriend and get married!

So should I just forget about school for a while? Or stick through with it?
Maybe I could do all the things I want to happen?

Someone help

Your not crazy for wanting it hon. It's the normal and natural woman/maternal instinct built into all of us.

However you are correct in wanting to wait until you are more stable. I say hang on and wait until you are completely financially ready for this.

Good luck hon :D

I was soooooooooooo burned out after high school, but went off to college anyway because I knew my parents wanted me to. They wanted to be sure I would have the credentials to be able to make a decent living once I was out from under their roof. So I stuck it out all four years of college and am glad I did. I became a teacher and got a great chance to use some of that "baby hunger" with the kids I taught. Also, during college I took every opportunity to interact with all ages of kids--in a church nursery and at park district and Y programs and while babysitting, etc. All that child care I did made me an even better mom later when I finally became one.

That baby you want won't just gaze up into your eyes in love with you. My first one screamed and cried for his first three months, and we never figured out why and how to "fix" whatever it was. He spit up a lot and seemed never to sleep. And babies and small children are greedy little rascals. They want your attention all the time, for food and for love and for conversation and for playing. To be the best mom, you have to be there for them and interact with them, but not plop them in front of the TV in a playpen or with a stuffed bunny.

If you are willing to give up your date life, your social life, and your sex life in order to have a baby, well, girl, good luck! I love my sons to pieces but am so glad I waited until I had grown up myself before I had them. And I was so glad to finally make the last school lunch for my younger one when he decided he would do that for himself.

I have a suggestion. Get a puppy. Make sure you love him and take him for puppy classes and other training and also be sure to read up on how to care for him (before you get him) and feed him the best foods and clean up after him and be patient with his quirks and naughtinesses and take him for long walks at least twice a day and buy toys for him (and spend a lot of time playing with him) and immediately take him to the vet when he gets sick or has some problem you don't understand and for sure have the money to be able to take him to the vet.

After three years of owning a dog and doing all of the above, you might be ready to take on the care of your own baby--OR, you might have had enough of responsibility and decide against the baby idea.

Got to spread the rep WG.

But that's an excellent suggestion. Puppys or kittens are a great solution to the 'i want a baby' feeling.