[Ruu]

First off, I apologize if this is in the wrong spot.
To be perfectly honest, I was too lazy to read the whole string..
I stopped at the first topic that seemed.. Relevant.

Now I know, you may think I'm just a spoiled little kid-
You know "IN MY DAY WE COULDNT EVEN AFFORD CRAYONS--"... that sort of thing.

But, I feel.. completely trapped where I am.
There's nothing I can do, as it seems.

My parents broke up when I was about 4,
I remember it, but I never really cared, and to
This day, I'm not really disappointed or confused,
In fact, I completely understand their decision.
(Yet, they were never married so I guess it wasn't really a divorce..
I'm completely fine with being a bastard child :D )

Now, I've been living with my mom, older brother, and older sister
For most of my life. Both my older brother and sister are terrible to
Me.. and my mom is Bipolar- Which is a bit too much to handle sometimes.
(I know what you're thinking, siblings fight... yet.. this isn't just.. fights.
Unbearable, sickening... They're MUCH much older than me, and still
Living with my mother... they should know better than to live the way they do..
I won't go into detail, just believe me.. its best to be away from them)

My mother takes their abuse, and refuses to even mention the
Possibility of maybe getting an education and moving out,
She's afraid, so I can't live with her anymore.

I live with my Dad, 36, Step-Mom Robin 26, and two step sisters-
Hunter, 7, and Lily, 3; Raised to be.. not the most innocent of children.
Yet, the 7 year old is a master manipulate. A real jack-off..
Like most 7 year olds, but both Robin and my Father fall for it, every time.

My step mom is a goddamn drunk..
Lazy, unemployed CHILD..
All grown up and yet hardly grown up at all.

With my dad working, we're only JUST making it by.
My mom makes good money, but as I've said before-
That place is no option.

I've been given the choice of living with either my Mom or Dad-

With my mom-
Foul, unjust, household of hate and unbearable stress..
Yet money, and a little more privacy.

With my dad-
A drunken whore, children at my feet 24-7, and still- Unbearable stress.
But I respect my father, and at least he's somewhat sain.

I want to be emancipated, leave.. even if I had to live on the streets.
Alone- Free of HUMANITY!

But, my parents, lawfully, have never done anything against me.
SO.. emancipation is out of the question...

But I'm so goddamned stressed out here...
I'm fourteen.. People my age are usually too ignorant to be bothered by this..
But I've seen enough to KNOW- this is too much!

I need to leave! And yet, I'm not allowed to!

Suggestions? :confused:

[tilly22]

Well I do feel for you, I know someone with bipola disorder and at times it can be very hard to cope with the manics of highs and lows, and I also know an alcoholic who can be very stressful at time abusive dirty who is currently on the streets, you shouldn't be in a situation which is obvioulsy affecting you. At your age ( by the way you seem very intelligent) you should be concentrating on your school life, hanging with you friends, and having fun, not worrying about money and things that your arents should be worrying about and looking out for you. Running away is the last thing you should be thinking about, you will be jepardising your health and your safety, what would you do for food warmth and clothing you would have no food no one to talk to and be more unhappy then you are now, which isn't a good idea, I'm sure you have a friend or a teacher at school that may be able to take some stress away, talk to them and see what they suggest, I hope you don't feel this way for anymore time good luck

[N0help4u]

I would say your dads does sound like a better environment.
Do you have a room of your own there?
IF so, I would spend as much time in my room when I couldn't be out hanging with friends.
Maybe even look for a part time job or participate in after school activities even if its spending time at the library.
Even though your residence is there you can find a life outside of home.
The bright side is you have 4 years left and it will go rather quickly, especially if you fill it with something other than family problems.
The saying time flies when you are having fun has more validity than it seems possible.

[JudyKayTee]

I would say your Mom's - you have called your stepmother a "gooddamn drunk, lazy, unemployed CHILD (your caps), a drunken whore" and I think if you move into HER

[JudyKayTee]

I'm having all sorts of computer problems today!

Anyway - to start over: I would say your Mom's. You have called your stepmother a "goddamn drunk, lazy, unemployed CHILD (your caps), a drunken whore" with "jack off children" - strong language indeed - and I think if you move into HER (and I appreciate it's also your father's) residence you will be in constant head to head confrontations with her and your father. Your mother appears to have mental health issues which hopefully she is treating.

I think if you move in with your stepmother and father you are going to end making everyone miserable and getting yourself kicked out. Your choice of words alone leads me to believe there are going to be big problems.

Not easy being a stepchild... or a step parent.

[Ruu]

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[JudyKayTee]

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