Hello, Here is my story I think that my children hate me because . I was very young when I give birth to my daughter I was 16 years old and how I concived her was that I was force to have sex when I didn't want to . And this had been going on often with different older teenages in the apt. building after they discovered that I was an easy prey. The reason why I didn't tell any one is because no one cared . I never meet my Mother and my father gave me to his mother to riseme .She was the only one who really loved me and she did the best that she could do on a fix income . She brought me up and she rose me the right way . When I turn 14 I decided to get to know my father so I found out where he lived and went to stay with him and this is when ever thing bad started happening . My grand ma was getting sicker , my father diddn't have time for me he had an girl friend who had 7 kids and the oldest son was one of the ones who was forcing me to have sex , then my grand mother died, and I give birth to a baby girl who is 25 yrs old now . When she was about 9 months I started dating the coolest guy in the neighbor hood the bad boy type and then I became popular and I gave birth to a son who is now 21 yrs. Old . And that cool boy friend and all that went down hill he turn out to be very , very, abusesive and then he started abusing , drugs and shortly after it had become a problem for me . Years after staying in this abusive realationship afraid of leaving . With a habit and no where to go I heard about a shealter for mothers like me . So I left him and I did good on my own for a couple of weeks and then I slip . I got kick out of the sheater for breaking the time rules I was suppose to be in at the giving time and I was late that why igot kick out. So I had to give up my chilren to family members to rise . When I turn 25 yrs old I was doing thing that I didn't want to do for drugs and I meet some one in the process he wanted something and so did I , and I feel in love with him and we had a girl together who is now 15 yrs old . I stop using this time it lasted a few years until I relaped so he ended up rising her . I guest that I had so much baggaged and was not quiet ready to settle down yet . Because I stayed out there and things had gotten wrost . Had two more children went though some ups ,and drowns but I am rising them two boys 11 & 9 an they have been in my life every since they where born. We own a home I am married and settled down and my husband has been there for me and my chilren every step of the way I have a realation ship with my oldest children and its pretty good but its more of a friend ship then a parent child realation ship and I think that they hold a lot of resitemit towards me for not rising them but now I am rising the younger ones . I am much better off then I was . I' m still struggling with some issuse . And my oldest chidren they ask me why and how did this have to happen to our family and I don't have all of the answers .

It sounds like you have been trough a lot. I think you should see a counselor for your issues. Just do your best to stay on the straight and narrow. You can't change your past but you can make the best of your current situation. I would do my best to explain what you can to your kids so that they can try to understand. Sometimes people make mistakes as long as you're a good mom now i think that is all that matters.

Hello and Thank you for your commit . Yes I have been though A lot some situation I had no control over and others just very bad mistaskes like you said . But the fact of the Matter is that no one has full control over there life ever success has it's levels and each level brings its own set of problems and fears for us all no one has it all together all the time .And on a daily basis it is in the back of my mind where I've been and I pray that I Will never turn there again . And I kept on push on not giving up same days are better then others but that's life . And that I have seen both sides of the coin I no that things can and will get better in its all through Gods grace I now have A husband who shows me the love that I all ways been looking for .

I'm Glad I Could Help. That's Only Because I Can Relate To What You Are Going Through. So Best Of Luck To You.