[lucy1987]

In November 2009 I was working in a senior community. Everyday as you walk into the front desk a soft smell of old purfumes would hit you. It use to drive me crazy but after awhile I got use to it and paid no mind. A month later I notice a new smell. This new smell was very strange. I didn't really paid attention to it at first. And just thought it was da mixtures of the purfumes the ladies were wearing. But then right after that I started to get a bad feeling. I knew something soon was going to happen I just didn't know what. I tried to ignore it but I couldn't because that smell was with me everywhere I went and thinking of what that smell could be made my bad feeling stronger. This smell is not bad or pretty sometimes I tink it might be close to a rose smell. Also I know its going to sound weird but this smell felt like it had some weight. Like if the smell was resting on my nose. I know its weird but I feel I have to tell as much as I can. So the whole month of December I had this smell follow me everywhere. And my stomach into knots knowing somehow that something bad was going to happen. On January 2011 around 10 or 11 pm my brother called me from mexico and told me grandma had just died. And I remember that as soon as I heard that I felt that weird smell lift and go away. And I knew I had sense her death for a month with that smell. My granny and me were very close the year I had stayed with her in mexico. And she waited for 6 yrs for me to return I just never could get a break from school and work. It hurts knowing that all she wanted her lasts days was to see me.

A yr later that smell came back again on August 2011. I already knew what it meant. I told my sister about it. She told me not to worried that maybe it meant that a new chapter in my life was going to start since I was making SO MANY changes in my life. And in da beginning of September it went away. And it was a relief because no one had died or so I thought. On oct 2011 another month later my auntie dalilah called from mexico and told my mother that my grandfather's sister bartola had died sept. 9 2011. I couldn't believe it. I was also close to her not as close as with my granny but we were close as much as we could.

Now it's jan,12 2012 and that smell came back again on the 9th. I'm stressing about it I feel faustrated angry sad and all of this is making me very tired. I kept thinking what's the point of knowing if there's nothing you can do to stop it. But den my ex boyfriend texted me to just get close to everyone in my family and to start making calls to the family that's not here in the states.

So if you are reading this and have had the same experience then just know that you are not alone and it doesn't make you a freak or weirdo we are just gifted to know its time to let go of the past and problems between the family and to get close to them and enjoy your time together.
To all of you take care and god bless.