My sweet 13yo is now abusive to me.
Hi, My 13yo son was a well mannered boy, who adored me. 2 years ago his father, my husband began to become jealous with my work travel and from that stemmed a lot of mental abuse, which resulted to physical abuse April this year. After trying to save the marriage for nearly 1 year, I gave up and as he would not leave the house, I moved bedrooms. I have 3 sons, 10,11,13 so I didn't want to move out. Their father convinced me that we can live separately and still raise our children.
I work fulltime and travel 25% of the time, each time I need to go away for work, things get heated and there is always an argument. He still looks through my phones, calls hotels I stay in and acts like a very obsessed being. He has not been violent physically since April but then again I do not go out with him anymore (fights use to stir after a night out because a man spoke to me, or looked at me).
My 13yo son has a computer game addiction, and recently I caught him getting up early hours of the morning to play, hence being too tired for school in the morning. He lied to me and his father condoned it. After threatening to take him and his computer to the school to prove his lying, he owned up to me. I have since restricted internet access at home and explained to him that things wouldve been worse if he hadn't owned up to his lying and that this won't be tolerated.
All was well until he tried to go to this online game and realised it was blocked, he then became very abusive to me again and when I asked him to stop, the attitude was "what are you going to do about it" he threatens his brothers in the most offensive way saying that hell rip their heads off and other terrible things. I do tell him off but he looks at me and says horrible things like your not a mother, and that I am making his dad sad.
I hide my feelings from my children and what their father has done, so to protect them. I do eveyrthing for my children I take them to school, their friends, sports, etc etc. I cannot believe he would say these things to me. My husband says he will not move out and even if I get an eviction he will wait for the police to evict him just so he can show the children how much of a horrible person I am. Which I am not. I have photos of the bruising from the abuse, suffered 2 years of mental abuse and now I feel I'm losing my child.
I feel so cornered, I don't know what to do. My other two children are supportive and would come with me should I move but I can't leave my eldest behind. Nor do I want to expose him to the terrible things his father has done. His father hears it all but does nothing.
I have tried talking to him, but he treats me with disrespect. I do not recognise him. Help me somebody I'm worried that I will lose my son to bad things and he is such a good kid. I am 33. How should I handle this ? His father won't have a bar of taking him to counselling and abuses me when I try talk to him and says lies so that my son hears it.
I feel so alone, my family is of european tradition and do not believe in divorce irrespective of abuse and so they do not support me in my decision. I keep reminding them that if it wasn't for my children I wouldn't be staying as they keep saying that I am not thinking of them by separating.
I feel so stuck.
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