Rough ride

I have been lying ever since I can remember. It started small but it is now out of hand. Here is a short version of what happened.

Ten years ago I married a wonderful woman. She finds happiness in everything. She is an artist that works in the financial field just to support us.

I had made up a past that was not true before I married her. I not only stuck with these outlandish stories of an amazing life but kept repeating them and embellishing for no reason. I even made up a story of a dead girlfriend that was great.

My wife supported us believing that I was successful in the past and would be again. We also have two wonderful children. During the time when I was setting up a business I also had an affair. I do not know why. My wife gives me everything I want when I want it. This is not to say she does not have a voice in our sexual relationship. Sorry to be scattered but I just found this site and I wanted to ask. I also am addicted to porn and more.

On day My Wife found out about the affair. She started checking on my stories. After total denial I finally fest up to everything. It has been a year and several eviction. Currently my wife says she is in this relationship but she does not love me. She said we do not know each other. We do have sex but everything is strained.

I need to get help but my wife has said she will not pay for anything. I am in debt.

Question 1. I need to get help. I am in upper east New Jersey and need professional help.

Surprisingly enough, the business I have been working on for a few years is about to pay off. Even I can’t believe it.

Question 2 when payday comes (large amounts within six months) do you think my wife will leave me. The post nup (my suggestion) she will bet 90% of everything.

I do not even know what my problem is except immaturity , possible narcissism, self indulgence. Ect.

Question 3. What is the underlying problem and how to I stop what I am doing.

I am out of control and do not know what to do. I do not want to loose my wife and children.

Well you need to stop lying if your in a relationship lying will makes things worst in the future because she is not marrying you for you. Tho it is a habit but when there is a problem there is a solution. First admit you lie and tell your wife be honest with her. This link will help you with the rest... How to Break a Bad Habit | eHow.com. I do this so that I don't take full credit for this and that I am too lazy to type out anything else XD. Gl