So much going on in my life, I can't take it. To start I suffer from rapid cycle bipolar this. And do not take med's can't stand the side affects. I also have P.T.S.D. and depression problems. And so much is going on right now in my life. I am getting worried now what will happen.
Start with I a am divorced and have raised four kid's youngest will be 18 next month. And she knows all. She has told me she is moving in with her new boyfriend of 4 weeks. So I am losing my child support for her, and she will not finish school another year to go. I got three through high school and that meant a lot to me. I have been divorced for 16 years.
My 20 year old just drop out of collage so now his support stops also.
I try to work 20 hours a week but that has been very tough. Had surgery on both of my feet for the third time and my doctor said I need to find something else than cashier. But I need the money because my S.S.D. is less than 500.00 mth.And my rent is more than that.
I also babysit my three year old grandson. He might have autism, he has a teacher come everyday. He does not talk yet. I told my daughter today that it is getting to be too much sitting five hours a night. I was crying and told her I am sorry I just can't do it anymore maybe two or three hours would be OK and she its o.k. you don't want to watch our kid. Making me feel bad and cry more.
I am going to have to sell my mobile home lose my car, owe too much to keep it. Have so many creditors calling now for past due credit cards. Can't put money in bank to pay bills have to buy money orders to pay bills,Worried they will freeze my acct. And I will lose what little I put in.
So any advise on where to turn next??
Not sure how long I can keep going with all this going on

Don't want to end up in the hospital again. So have to keep some of this hush

Im very sorry to hear your situation. Im sorry, but I'm 16 and not very experienced in life, but I will try and give good advice all the same. Have you tried reaching out to a church leader or something similar? I'm not personally very religious, and don't know if you are, but aren't they always there to help people?

Can your children help you? Im not sure but I think you need to find someone who will listen and help you sort out your financial dealings, because once that is done maybe you will be able to relax a bit and sort out everything else?

Good luck

Sorry I couldn't not be more help

If you do not want to go to the same church that you help, try going to another one. There is this group called Catholic Charities that helps people in need, and you do not have to be Catholic. Like them, there is the Salvation Army and probably Metropolitan Ministries. All of those groups help people in need. Also, look in your Yellow Pages and your government offers mental ehlp for you. Please feel free contact me here is you need someone to talk to.

Amour... I felt the same way you do now some time ago,and please don't think that there is no help. There are plenty of places that can help you. All you have to do is ask. Don't be embarrassed about it, because that is their purpose and jobs.
Good luck to you and I will be praying for you.

I meant to answer Lorhibi... sorry for the mistake...

Amour, I can understand that you may not want to take medications for your Bi-polar disorder due to how they make you feel, but I was womdering if you had diabetes would you not take insulin even though you didn't perhaps like stiking yourself with needles. I feel most of your problems are stemming from decsions you are making when your brain isn't stabilized due to your disorder.