I was diagnosed w/ Major depression about 2 years ago and this winter it has been getting worse. I am short w/ my kids don't want to work just want to sleep and be at home by myself . I lost my grandma about 2 weeks ago and it has just made it worse I am struggling so much I can't get into a psych doctor for another 2 weeks. I don't have thoughts of suicide I just have the urge to start cutting again and I don't want that I am fighting it really hard. I just cry at the drop of a hat or not even that. It just seems like it is getting worse and worse I take my meds like I am suppose to I am on high doses I take Effexor Xr 150mg and Zoloft 200mg Xanax 1mg 3 times a day and panalor 25mg at bed and it just seems like nothing helps I just want to go crawl in bed and sleep forever. Our finance at home are horrible and me needing time off is just making it worse but I don't want to go back to work because it is worse when I am there for some reason. I just want to be better. I want to be a good employee I want to be a good wife, friend, mother. I just feel like a horrible person because all this is hitting me again. Please help is anyone has any ideas on want may help:mad: