3 months ago I had several times sexual intercourse with no protection at all with my girlfriend but we aren't dating anymore. A month later I found out she had VB and an yeast infection but I didn't see anything on me. On the 5th week and 4 days of possible exposure to an std I went to the hospital to check for std. 2 weeks after the tests came back negative for Chlamydia, gonorhea, syphilis and hiv and all of them were negative. I read in the internet that it takes about 3 months for the body to show antibodies of hiv (very worry) 2weeks after that I stared having sensations,tingling, shocks right above my penis. In between the penis and lower stomach (pelvic area) and I got really freaked out so I went to the doc and that same day the pain got so intense that it went to my testicles and the uthera. He did a urine test and check the prostate if there was any infection and there was nothing and in the release papers it said it was pelvic pain and he gave me Naproxen for pain. (That helped). For the past month its been hell to me! I had flue like symptoms, headaches, light fever, sore right neck(it feels sore if I force my head toward my right shoulder) and the past week I have had slight itching in my throat, back, legs and groin area. There is also tingling in my fingers, soles, and sometimes the knee, Muscle soreness and 2 days ago severe right ankle pain with headache. I took advil and some how all of that has gone away. I think that if I stop taking advil the pain will comeback and it sucks cause these kind of stuff is something I have never experience before. Iam a regular drinker for almost 13 years and have stop drinking a total of 3 month during that span of time. I been sober for 1 month now and I wonder if this has to do anything with it (withdrawal symptoms) I been taking Citalopram for 2 weeks now and I wonder about the side effects if it has something to do with it. (Joint pain, muscle pain, headache, nausea, yawning, fatigue) the last 3 weeks I have convince myself I have hiv by being in the internet 24/7 I have isolated myself from friends and family and don't want them to get near me cause I am scare they will catch something. I am even careful at home with what I touch. All this has really gotten me depressed and have anxiety and it has taken a toll in my life and I am really scare of hiv. I also think that the depression is causing all this and being in the internet every day trying to find out what's wrong with me. I will go to check myself again. Please help :(

It almost feels like the pain or sensations I had in my pelvic has move to other parts of my body

Continue taking the Citalopram correctly, as your prescription requires, as the doctor recommended. Also take Naproxen as needed.

You sound very full of anxiety and that is the result of your worrying so much about what might be wrong with you and if you will transmit it to others.

Listen to me. There are good things happening. You have stopped drinking, and you will continue with this plan of not drinking. You will not drink with friends/family or by yourself. Your drinking days are over. You have been sober for a month. Take it day by day. Continue to be sober. It will make your health much better.

Another thing that is good is that you are taking Citalopram and will continue to take it correctly. Give it a fair opportunity to get into your system. It will improve how your brain chemistry works and will make you feel better.

Another good thing--you have found us. Please post your questions and concerns any time you feel like you need outside, unbiased help. We have many good people here. I am a counselor and others are medical people. We don't know you and can't talk to you in real life, but we will be cheerleaders for you and encourage you.

One final thing. You must become social again. Your health depends on it. You must talk and laugh and do fun things with family members and friends. You will to do these things in small ways at first, but they will get easier during the next 30 days.

My best wishes to you. I will watch for more questions from you. (And where do you live, so I know what time zone you are in?)

Having unprotected sex with a woman who has HIV is bad, but that doesn't mean that you have it. If the doctor tested for it you may have to wait to take a second test to confirm that the virus is in your system. It is transferred by blood-body fluid contact Touching people and things with your hands, so long as neither person is bleeding or cut is perfectly safe. Future sex partners should be told that you may have HIV. They may elect to go ahead with a condom, they might not.

As far as withdrawal from alcohol, depression can be a symptom. Depression can cause aches and pains. Ibuprofen can help. Being anxious and worried, risk of HIV aside, is understandable. It's great you quit drinking! Stay quit. See a psychiatrist to have your mood evaluated. An anti-depressant may be prescribed to get you past this tough time.

That's what Citalopram is. It will help his brain chemistry get smoother and help his moods.

Thank u. its been exactly 2 weeks and I read the side effects and some of those I am feeling them I am not drinking at all either and planning to keep it up. I been on the internet everyday now for 1 month and all this symptoms are very rare with what I read and I have diagnose myself with different std and I know is not good but I just feel there is something wrong inside my body but don't know what it is. I read about how people have symptoms of stress, depression and alcohol withdrawal symptoms and I could relate to those but am not sure.

I ask you for a favor. During the next 24 hours I want you NOT to be on the Internet. It will be a struggle if you are (like me) used to surfing and checking email, etc. but STAY OFF. You need 24 hours of vacation from the Internet. I did this last week and it helped me a lot. My face got smoother and my eyes relaxed. I read a book and a magazine and wrote a letter. Tnere are things you can do too. Go to a movie or read or listen to the radio or watch TV or play with your dog or cat if you have one. DO NOT GO ON THE INTERNET. 24 HOURS. That's all, but do fun things meanwhile.

Then report to me here how it felt to be without Internet access and did it help you in some way. This is an experiment to find out if it helps you as much as it helped me last week. I will be watching for your report.

Did I miss something? I don't remember reading that the gal had HIV.

Now to the OP... slow down for a moment... Take a very deep breath in through your nose... hold it for 10 seconds and release it slowly through your mouth. Good, good, that's better.

Now the medication you are on is very well known as Celexa. I take this medication as well. It takes about 3 weeks or so to be in full effect.

Hun, you need to relax, I mean really relax. You don't have HIV, it's hard to get it from a woman. If you have an STD, which the results were negative, so I wouldn't worry, simple every day antibiotics can take care of that.

This could very well be the flu and nothing to worry about.

It's good to see that you are sober for a month now, Celexa and alcohol don't mix. Take WG's advice and stay off the computer for 24 hours. Absorb yourself in other things you used to enjoy.

Lastly, none of the symptoms you describe are those of HIV, more so anxiety attacks which is most likely why you were prescribed the medication to begin with.

Are you sleeping well? A good night's sleep will work wonders. There are some medications that can be combined with the one you are already taking that will help balance your mental state with your sleep state.

By the way I stayed in chicago the time is 1:58am. I was never in on the web as much since I bought a blackberry curve and I take my phone everywhere and that's why I am here all the time but if you would check my history in my phone? It would be nothing but std"s and hiv/aids. Yes I would try to do a report about how it feels not to be in the internet that much. I been feeling better lately and have gone out a couple of times and it does make me feel good. Ever since that risk encounter its been hell. I was felling fine and all, exercising, running 2 miles every other day and it was great but now its awful. Mostly what it is now its pain in my legs, specially by my groin area and its been OK now since I took advil last night QUOTE=Wondergirl;1402472]I ask you for a favor. During the next 24 hours I want you NOT to be on the Internet. It will be a struggle if you are (like me) used to surfing and checking email, etc. but STAY OFF. You need 24 hours of vacation from the Internet. I did this last week and it helped me a lot. My face got smoother and my eyes relaxed. I read a book and a magazine and wrote a letter. Tnere are things you can do too. Go to a movie or read or listen to the radio or watch TV or play with your dog or cat if you have one. DO NOT GO ON THE INTERNET. 24 HOURS. That's all, but do fun things meanwhile.

Then report to me here how it felt to be without Internet access and did it help you in some way. This is an experiment to find out if it helps you as much as it helped me last week. I will be watching for your report.[/QUOTE]

Ah, you are in Chicago. Is it raining or snowing?

Now, I want you to know that I am a registered nurse, and I can pretty much promise you that the symptoms you are describing have NOTHING to do with HIV/AIDS or a STD. It sounds more like a flu or even anxiety attacks.

Could you have pulled a groin muscle when you were running? This could explain some of your symptoms as well.

Wow that's quite nice of you postin what you do. Did u felt fearful when u were diagnosed with cancer? Right I never said she had hiv! That it is only in my head but I have to make sure by doing another elisa test for hiv and stds

Did I feel fearful when I was diagnosed with cancer? Nah, actually it was me telling the doctors I had cancer, but they wouldn't listen. That was 12 years ago and I'm healthier than I have ever been, actually healthier than before the cancer.

Gangster, I am not fearful of anything. NOTHING. My friends here can tell you that.

Bear with me here... There is nothing in life to be fearful of. Everything happens for a reason. We may not know the reason when it happens, but eventually we figure it out. There is always something to learn, and in turn we can teach others.

I was a very small scared young girl before I had cancer, went through a string of abusive relationships. THEN cancer struck, it made me strong, made me realize that there was no one that could push me around. That I am the only one in control of my life.

You can do this too. I know you never said that the gal had HIV/AIDS, another poster said it and I wanted to clear that up.

I understand your fear, I've been there, done that, and got the t-shirt... actually I have about 10 t-shirts, 2 sweatshirts and a license plate.

I can't help but repeat myself when I say that your symptoms have nothing to do with HIV or STDs. Take this as a learning experience. Always use protection and never have sex with anyone you don't know, and I mean medically as well.

Now, young man, giggle, relax, you will be fine. HIV does not have symptoms this fast. You were with her 3 months ago, it takes longer to get symptoms. STDs only have symptoms in the genital areas, not the entire body as you are experiencing.

Take some Nyquil, get some rest, and stay off the booze. I am so happy to hear that you have been sober for so long. Many people are not as strong as you.

It's snowing? I miss the snow. Haven't seen it for over 8 years now.

Look, I have to run out for a minute, but I'll be back.

Ok. Nice to hear nice things from you. The only way I will find out if I have something is whe I do onother test wich I woul do this week.

I'm back.

You are doing another test this week? Which one? I'm sure you will be fine.

I am going to one of the std clinics here by my town to check agoing for std's with is driving me real crazy already. I am getting off from work and I am not doing anything except to sleep all day and do nothing. This thoughts are getting me so depressed that I don't feel like doing anything. Every little thing I feel bad in my body I run to the computer and try to find out what it is and every time is just different. ;(

When you have exhausted all your fears of std's can you relax then?

I know how my mind searched for SOMETHING to be wrong with me when I first started taking meds.I invented all kinds of problems for myself and worried to no end.

I have been on meds such as you are taking now for over 10 years,many changes and much success.It takes time to get through this change,your mind is just used to a certain amount of chaos and to alter it takes time and effort.

The lack of motivation IS the depression,I think you can see that.Depression tells us to not participate,not to try,not to be healthy.

In time we can see that what we were worried about was invented,not reality.

I really hope you don't have any std's from your past to contend with,that is also a fear of mine,a big one.I fought with it for too long.Hindsight has shown me it wasn't a rational fear and I have learned not to take the chances with unprotected sex any longer,to take better care of my future.

What have you done in the past to occupy your free time?

How many of them did you really enjoy,and what is different today? What makes it so hard to do them while off work?

Will power does play a part in coping with depression,the getting up and doing things,pushing the obsessive thoughts to the side and acting.

I am in the Rochelle/Dixon area in Illinois,we got 6 inches of snow last night,I used to sleep all winter long,when I fell prey to my depression.this year has me doing volunteer work and adding to this site.Maybe you can do this too,adding to the others who look for depression awareness and share your thoughts.We welcome all assistance and you are on the inside of depression,you have identified it as a problem,getting treated and now have something a lot of others don't have,personal insight into depression and how it affects your life.

I'll be monitoring this thread and hope we can continue this discussion.

KBC

I think that's what it is that the way I am thinking about this situation is out of perspective. Its nice to read that other people care and to read about what other people think about the situation that I am going trough! I find myself doing that too, every day when I wake up I look I myself looking for anything in my to see if there's something wrong with mu body(skin,neck, legs, neck) I try to give myself problems that aren't there. I don't have enthusiasm to go out or anything, I stay I'm my room must of the time watching TV and sleeping. I like to run, work out but this -imaginary disease that I have doesn't make it do it. I said that because its only in my head and don't really know by a doctor what I have.

You are on the right track Gangster1,don't stop now!

Identifying this as delusion is more than half the battle.

Now just allow the medications to do their job,all will be better soon,give it a week or two more,then put the pressure on that depression and get out and do those things you know you can do.

If this site does help,keep writing,even the littlest things are mountainous verses fighting the depression,writing how you feel kick's it's A** quick!

Keep on keeping on and write back with anything you got.

KBC

I am really freaked out about diseases! Has anybody heard about the worry-well-symdrome?