I have been dealing with depression, self harm, suicide, and eating problems. Around last year end of the school year I began to develop an eating habit of restricting my food. I would go 3-4 days without eating and then get mad at myself for eating so I would go longer. I ended up not eating for 4-6 days. When I would not eat for 5 days I would only allow myself to ea a cracker or 2 and that would have to last me another3-4 days. When I was 8 I was raped and when my mom found out she denied that it happened and that was my first suicide attempt. My second attempt was around 3 months after the first attempt. The second one was more serious I took 56 Advil's and then another 17 an hour after the first 56. I am not proud of it but I some times( more often then not) think everything would be better if I was dead. I cause my mom and dad stress my dad had a stroke and wanted to leave my mom and she blamed me for the fights. I began purging around that time. Now I am purging twice to three times a day. I am on a 200-300 calorie a day diet. I am trying to reduce my food intake so I won't purge. 2 weeks ago I started using laxatives but I don't think I am considered bulimic. When I binge I cut after to try to teach myself a lesson. I know I need someone to talk to about this but I don't think I am or would even be considered Bulimic. Please give me your opinion and advice thank you.

Yes, you are.

Bu·li·mi·a
n.
1. An eating disorder, common especially among young women of normal or nearly normal weight, that is characterized by episodic binge eating and followed by feelings of guilt, depression, and self-condemnation. It is often associated with measures taken to prevent weight gain, such as self-induced vomiting, the use of laxatives, dieting, or fasting.

Can't it be an eating problem would you go as far as to say I am bulimic?

Yes, you are bulimic.

I'll second that. You are bulimic.

"I know I need someone to talk to about this"

Yes, you do. Karen Carpenter, a famous singer in "The Carpenters," died of this. It sounds like you are starving yourself to death like she did.

But Im not like full blown bulimic I only purge 2-3 times a day not like 15 times a day.

Doesn't matter.

Yes, you are "full blown" bulimic. A person who is not bulimic doesn't purge at all.

Well if I am Bulimic it's not to the point where I would need help... right?

You definitely need help. What don't you think you are able to control in your life?

It appears you do indeed need help very badly as you are anorexic as well.

You only take in 200-300 calories a day when the recommended caloric intake is 1200-1500 calories a day. Your body is eating it's own muscle just to keep you alive right now. If this continues, your heart will become involved in that process and shut down completely.

You will not survive this if you don't get help.

I am fine

Levylane, how old are you?

16 why?

This is stupid I was fine before I posted this and ill be fine after thank you for your concern but I am going to be okay.

No, you won't be okay, not without professional help. Self-delusion is another piece of this puzzle.

No really I am okay I have only been on the 200-300 calorie diet for a month now and I'm not using laxatives anymore I'm only purging twice a day. I will admit I'm not eating enough calories and I have lowered my intake to 100-200 calories but I'm not dead nor will I be any time soon.

Tell me honestly how tall you are and how much you weigh.

I am 5'4 and 115 pounds I have already checked my BMI and I am at a healthy weight