Hello everyone, today am so depressed that I feel 2 kill myself. As I know where I stand today. All this started when I was pregnant with my 3rd child had gone for delivery, away from my husband for 6months he was all alone in the house my mother had asked her sister to keep visiting him to know how he's doing, my aunt has 3kids two teenage and one 7yrs. He fixed her on a very good job with him. She use to come visit him with her family. They were free... joking pulling legs etc. While I was away they got involved I had no idea. They were getting close in my absence chatting going out etc. I had trust in both to an extent where I could fight for them. When I returned her husband my uncle called me and said that he feels there's something fishy and my husband called him and they both fought and many other things I shouted at him saying you are a narrow minded person to even think about my aunt in this manner, how could she do something like that. I fought with him and also called my aunt she cried cursing her own husband. I called my husband saying my uncle is gone crazy he said don talk to him if he calls again. I said why din you both tell me that he fought with you both in my absence they both said they din want to bother me as I was pregnant. There are many such fights and lies that they both gave me. Well finally my mom joined me from USA for a visit. She saw them jokin around and very happy with each other she said you need to keep yr eyes open. That's when I told my husband I don like this free way of your with my aunt. He started proving himself took me to my mom and said look your daughter has doupts on me its all bcoz of her uncle, he cried to saying I came here to earn for my family not do all this. Well I believed because he cried. One fine night I took his computer and saw 2photos of him and my aunt kissing lip to lip in our car. I donno how to explain but since that night till today am a dead person. My charmin happy life has shattered into bits. We had humugous fights where he hit me so much out of anger as I shouted so much. My aunts husband was threatening him to death, but he never did in fact he still sends her to the same office where he works. Well many more things. As this was my love marriage and I fought for it for 4yrs beaten up by my parents because they loved me a lot they din wan me to marry him, as am the only child. But we got married finally convincingly but no happiness from his side and ours. Well after all this we were married happily now I was growing trust in him loving him lots even my family. One day all this comes up my mother was in shock and am not recovering still. I NEED A BIG HELP TO OVERCOME THIS. NOTHING SEEMS RIGHT I HAVE NO FEELINGS FOR HIM EXCEPT HATRED!! I hate him am so hurt so hurt that my marriage looks breaking apart. I have this inner feeling one day we will depart. All this is fake temporary life. I read all his chats they were sick and dirty about sex and love he was expressing for her. He said he committed to her he's in love with her and he means it... and what not I read. After all this am not able to live. My mother said will you die or kill yrself for him. I donno what it is do I love him that I can't live with him or I just wan to leave him desperately. I have 3 small kids for their sake I HAVE to live with him or else we both have no feeling for each other I feel. Am hurt because its who I loved so much. When I took the truth to his face he cried too lied of course, and begged that I should not leave him he wans to live with me. BUT... living with him is no more the same. What should I tell him? How do I manage my life, he's a person who is not open keep things to himself. What should I do, if I tell him anything he tells me to forget everything. How is it so easy as he did? Please advise. Please help. Few days back I was outside this lady my aunt on the road came to me and said so many things because her husband said some things so she also came and said bad things to me said so did you read all chat so now you know how yr husband is behind me... she said you are also not good blah blah. Then I told my husband that my aunt and uncle were abusing me on the road. So he called them and abused they all were abusing each other. Well this is my life am not happy at all, my way of thinking is also changed there in no word as TRUST in my life. Either I leave him but what should I do please help.

Sweety you should to what your head tells you it will never lead us stray your family will all ways be there no matter what and that support is what you need men to me come and go there like door mats.
Once they hurt you and get away with it they will do it again and again and then there's your baby's what about them if your not here who will tell them they are loved when there sick who will make them well if they fall over who will kiss them better try he lives in house and you live in your own house it will give uyou some time apart to short out how you fell I wish all the best now and for ever
Kim