I have been married 18yrs got married when we were 21.My husband thinks I cheat on him.I have had more boyfriends then he had girlfriends when I was younger.I have lied to him about money and bills but I have taken out home equity loan to get our bill back in order.It comes out of my paycheck.But I have never cheated on him .He is real friendly with women,but I don't think has cheated.He checks my phone the computer everything.Im thinking of ending it because I don't want to deal with it anymore.I love him and want to be forever but that's all long time to put up with this.we have 2 children an 18yr and 11 yr old. I think Im getting depressed ,or sometimes I think Im going to have a nervous break down I don't like confrontation.some advise please