I will be married 35 years soon and I want to leave. No I have not been beaten. He has a good job. There are just issues from long ago that I can not forget or forgive. We have raised 5 children together. We care for each other but it is not real love. I feel very depressed as if no one cares about me and I feel like I am just here. I know I need to leave but I have no idea how or if I can. Where - how does someone start over after 35 years of marriage? I don't know how to forgive & I don't think I really want to. I am always angry.