Help, I was a bad muslim!
Ok so I did a huge sin, and I'm having so much trouble with the guilt and regret. I had a muslim boyfriend in the past and we were physical, I gave him my body and he was my first for everything! Then he dumped me and disappeared from my life. I was so heartbroken because he promised we would get married and now I just feel like a really bad muslim. I keep asking allah for forgiveness but I cann't seem to let it go or forgive myself, it has affected me so badly. I feel so digusted with myself and myself esteem has dropped! I feel very used by him and I have so many guys asking me to get engaged and married to them now as I am in my mid 20's and I keep saying no even though they are really good muslim guys and would be great husbands because I feel like I don't deserve a good person and because I feel bad knowing that I shared something so special with someone who didn't care about and now I cann't share the experience with a husband who truly cares and loves me. I really need some advice from other muslims about what to do right now, because I hate feeling like this!!
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