Im 15 years old Female and I live in England, all through my teenage years I have been bullied by pretty much most people in my year except the really unpopular kids... I've been moved around classes none stop to help me settle down but I never have, I always get into fights and arguments and I have had so many fall outs with people I don't have any friends at my school any more, I would say I am ugly I am very self conscious but a lot of people say I'm very pretty, I'm 5'10 have brunette hair with copper, blonde, and lighter blonde highlights, I have sky blue eyes,I have very nice skin, and I'm average weight and size, but still I think I'm ugly I used to be very loud at school making people not like me but I seem to have calmed down and now I don't talk to anyone not even teachers, I can't trust many people and I find it hard to adapt to new people, I wouldn't say I was unsociable because I have a group of friends that live in the next village from me that I hang around with but they have all left school because they have all left school they drink,smoke have sex I don't drink often but I do smoke and I have sex a bit with my ex boyfriend who is my friends with benefits ( do stuff as friends) I wouldn't class myself as a slut though because I see him as my boyfriend because I don't evem talk to other boys and I still love him sooooooooooo much, a lot of people at school make up ball**** about me and everyone believes it even though none of its true I spend my breaktimes and lunchtimes sitting on my own in a classroom doing coursework, I have a lot of home problems and I have gone through a lot of abuse, I have tried suicide a few times but none of it worked there's not a day that goes past without me thinking about dying, I have even got my funeral songs written down,I fell out with my best friend the other day over some lad saying **** about my family she will no longer talk to me, I spend everyday when I come home from school tidying up my house, I am looking for a boyfriend though but because everyone hates me no one will go out with me someone is interested in me and his personality is sooo nice but his looks aren't on the great side and a lot of people hate him so we have a lot of things in common and he already says he loves me but its not who I want to make a relationship with, this morning I found out the guy that I'm in love with is at the moment out with a girl -_- it broke my heart, someone help me please I can see the end of the tunnel "/ x

You are still in school, you have not even started a tunnel to be at the end of.

You bring into a relationship part of the result. Most people never fight, so if you are fighting, you either meet with the wrong people, and need to consider meeting or being friends with others.

Will it be easy, NO, will it be fast ? NO You start by perhaps getting into counseling to help guide you into a new life

I've had counseling for the past 4 years for a lot of things I have behaviour problems as well but its never sorted out for me I'm always looking for the easier option and I gues this was the option I took