I've had many moments where I wanted to end my life but kept myself away from hurting myself. It's funny though, because I am still hurting emotionally to the point where nothing else could hurt more than within me. I am broken...
I know if anything, no matter how sorry I am, apologies won't bring me back. I think about everything every single day. I try not to overthink but my brain does it for me. I'm sick of going to bed crying to waking up upset because I know how my day would be like. I know other kids have it worse but just like some of them I feel alone, ugly, worthless, hopeless... and just dead inside. :(
I'm sorry for not going into detail... I'm just wishing someone could give me a hug so I could say everything :(