I use to be happy young lad not caring about death because I knew I would go to god and spend a wonderful life in heaven.
Now being a full on atheist I just can't get over the fact that one day I will die which can be any day now to 50 years or so from now.
I'm still young but I can't accept the fact that when I die my mind will disappear into complete nothingness and I will have no mental thoughts emotions personality.
I guess I'm just thinking too much about it but still freaks me out .

I wish I stilled believed in god has that gave me a lot of comfort in knowing where I will be after death.
If I ever had to believe in god again it will be out of force and lie and it's just something I have convinced myself that the other side is complete nothing :(