This is really hard to talk about...

Two years ago, at summer camp, I was raped by my friend. We were playing are you nervous and I never got nervous, and he knew that. He also knew that I had a crush on him. He suggested that we go somewhere else and I said yes. Before I could sit down, he pushed my on the ground. He straddled me and started to choke me and I black out. I guess it was only for a few seconds, cause when I woke up, I saw him shove his penis in me. I rather not talk about the rest.

I know the definition of virgin is to become sexually active, but I also know that being a virgin is your choice. Does rape or sexual abuse count? To become sexually active, or to lose your virginity is a choice. But if you're forced to have sex, does it count? I don't know what to do.

So, am I a virgin. I just want to know if I am. My parents don't even know about what happened, so if you give me advice on telling them that, that would be great. It's just really annoying when people ask you "Are you a virgin"? And you don't know what to say. Please give me an answer, I'm only 14. Thank you.