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    Feb 1, 2006, 05:04 AM
    My best fiiend took a lethal dose of amphetamine
    May I take a moment to reflect back to a moment in my life when I heard the tragic news of a very very dear friend of mine.

    She loved life and everything about it, Health and Fitness, Nature, Animals, and so on.
    She loved partying too.
    Don't we all?

    She was such an inspiration to me and I was to her.
    We were best mates.
    I can't believe I'll never see her again, she was only 26.
    I'll never understand how she came to take that lethal dose of mdma but according to those around her at the time, that's exactly what she did.
    Yeah she loved to party, but she loved to live too.

    I think about her constantly and I just wanted to make awareness for those who maybe in the same predicament.
    Ill never see Stephanie again but she lives on in my heart.

    I spend most days gazing at her photo asking - WHY, why did you do it.
    I can't come up with answers because there aren't any.
    The fact is, she no way would have wanted to die this young.

    It's a painful end of such a beautiful spirited person that she was.
    Her parents... beside themselves, how do you ever cope with saying goodbye to your own child?

    Her older Brother and Sister who loved her dearly.

    We'll all miss her

    RIP Stephanie 20/3/05
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    Feb 1, 2006, 06:02 AM
    HI, Bluetooth,
    Thank you for posting a "in loving memory" post for your friend. I am so sorry to read this.
    Talking about this is the best way to accept what has happened, and it really helps online, or in person. I do wish you the best, and as you probably know, it will take some time to be able to get on with your life.
    My wife and I have never lost a child (have 3 grown, moved away to different jobs), and we really don't know the feelings. Hope we never do.
    I wish you the very best, and she will always be in your memory, but it does get better.
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    Apr 17, 2006, 03:50 PM
    I don't want to cause any controversy but.. you think she didn't want to do it?? Maybe she was murdered (as in someone made her take them.. or forced it into her).
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    Apr 20, 2006, 04:06 AM
    I really don't know... but the doctors did say it was an unusually high level of mdma which was found in her system. Yes she did dabble in ecstacy but she was very controlled with what she did and didn't do.

    I just could not see her as the kind of person who would seriously harm herself in that way. She was having personal problems like most of us do and deal with in different ways so, who knows.

    Did things get so tough that she felt life was no longer worth living?
    We'll never know.

    What we do know is, there were others around her, not the kind I would trust but she did. Again when you see the picture as it is it looks, it's pretty shady, but whoever, whatever, we will never know the truth.

    My thoughts on a personal level is that she was spiked with the drug but the joke went a bit too far.
    Why I think that is because I knew her very well, we went out clubbing, she loved life, and everything in it. She pretty much planned her life out. Knew what she wanted. She worked and had everything to live for.

    Does this sound like an unstable person to you?
    Well however it looks to anyone, she had a life which was taken so suddenly.
    My children have more common sense when it comes to drugs which I'm very thankfull for.
    It's just a shame that they would have to find out in such a tragic way as she was extremely close to them.
    Hope this answers your query mate.
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    May 7, 2006, 03:29 PM
    Blue, I don't want to hert you but I think you are giving her too much credit when you say someone else might have done it to her
    My father over dosed on drugs killing him two weeks before my 11 b-day
    For a long time I tried to convinse myself that is was an acsident
    (he had alredy been on drugs) I said to myself he just took too much that night he did not mean to he did not want to die he wanted to live for me and my sister
    But after a little I rellized that my dad was truly sad and wanted to live for me and my sister but couldn't go another day he took so much drugs that night he must have know what he was doing and meant to do it

    Some times people who seem happy are crying on the inside and can't go another day I think your friend could not get he self to talk about it

    My father killed himself but I know he loved me and I will always love him

    I am 13 my father did this 2 years ago and it still makes me cry I know my father was a good person and felt this was what he had to do
    And I think the same goes for you friend I know it is hard and I still have not goten over losing my father if you need someone to talk to althow I am only 13 I am always here
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    May 7, 2006, 04:21 PM
    Thank you so much for your kind words.
    It means a lot, no matter what your age.
    I lost my Dad when I was 15, he died from lung cancer. We were very close and I miss him dearly.

    I was mostly upset that he never got to see me aspire into the person I am today.
    Though I strongly believe he is with me at times of need.

    All the questions that were asked about Steph, all the why's the how and where's... it left a lot of us quite frustrated and angry to be honest.
    We will never know the real truth of how stable she was before she took the overdose. We did consider the awful truth that it may have been a lot to do with the fact that she was sufffering with depression at the time, she was getting help with it too.
    Maybe it got too much for her take in. Who knows?
    Thank you again for your comments.
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    May 7, 2006, 04:27 PM
    Thank you it helps to have people out there to tell how you feel and just knowing one more person who I can relate to helps so much ;)
    ~Anna
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    Mar 4, 2008, 02:34 AM
    Lethal dose of mdma, I am wondering how much is that. I've heard of people that took 30 pills in one night. In fact one friend of mine from school took 28 within an hour, he did end up in hospital but he didn't die, doctors flashed his stomach and he was good to go.
    Feel bad for you loss
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    Mar 4, 2008, 07:07 PM
    Different people have different tolerance levels and some get to the point they think they are invincible and can do as much as they want as often as they want and nothing will happen but the pills have a different idea so I can see it being an overdose.
    It is sad that people's lives come to this.
    Use it to warn other people so maybe they might think twice.
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    Mar 4, 2008, 07:42 PM
    I agree with that for sure, but from what was originally said I assumed she have done mdma before and than she dies from overdose. No one realized she overdosed when she started puking, that's like the very first thing that happens when you overdose.
    It is too bad, young age too, my sis is that age now.
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    Jul 13, 2011, 03:41 PM
    Sounds kind of like me I am 25 I will be 26 Saturday... my planned DOD... I know it sounds really stupid I have 2 beautiful boys and a great husband who I love dearly and I am sure he loves me to... but sometimes people fight with themselves to be happy.. like me I should be happy but instead I am planning my funeral arrangements... I have researched lethal doses of things I have some tramadol pills for back pain and my husband takes lexapro.. he knows I have been feeling down lately and I asked him if I could take his lexapro he said if it will make me feel better then yes.. he says he can't find them because I hid them so he will get it refilled tomorrow his payday and refill my tramadol... he doesn't know how deadly the two can be when taken together so my plan is after having both refilled and what I already have Saturday my birthday when he leaves for work I will take them all plus I will take flexoril because one pill always knocked me out so 16 should help and I will also take 15 phenergan just to keep me from throwing it all up... I won't be back on after today to check comments because I have too much to do... I have given away most of my stuff I am selling my car laptop 55in TV and grill to cover burial costs... I know everyone will be just fine without me... my family never calls me... my dad hasn't told me he loved me in forever... my mom is always concerned with other things and doesn't even notice how much I need her... my sissy and me has finally regained a relationship but she still doesn't care to know my problems... my brother only cares to come over when I had internet hooked... my kids will be at their real dads Saturday... he is a great father I told my 4 year old what I will do and made him promise not to tell anyone I wanted him to know I loved him with all my heart... my husband... he is a good man... he stole my heart when I didn't think anyone could... him marrying me has caused him a lot of stress because I don't work and he didn't have any kids of his own he has had to work even harder than a single man to provide for us... I will let him have all my furniture because he had nothing when we married and I want him to have all that... my clothes will be droppped off to goodwill and all my personal belongings the important things will be given to my kids... I am not writing this for attention or help I am just helping people to understand a dying woman's last thoughts... I have had lot of time to plan it out... u know the woman described full of life and joy and happiness and partier and fun to be around and the person who makes everyone else happy... that's me... except no one sees behind the smile... so my advice is to tell people you love them all the time... don't lose touch with good friends because you might get a call that they are gone... thanks for reading my stupid waste of your time comment from a woman who is a ghost in this world... I'm sorry mom dad bros and sis my babies and my ex hubby my current hubby my best friend bo I'm sorry I couldn't tell you about my pain I hoped me holding it in would lighten yours... I love you all.. and I will miss you dearly... until we meet again Annarie daughter baby girl

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