Today I told the father of my child that I wasn't pregnant...
I took some tests and they were negative. I still didn't feel right and I went to the clinic (without him) to check. They told me I was around 4 weeks pregnant and had low hormone levels that probably weren't detected by the test.
When I told him, he told me that he wanted me to take tests in front of him since I didn't go with him to the clinic. He was just being a **** about the whole thing, and while I understood it, it was uncalled for. It pissed me off that he didn't trust me. How are you supposed to have a baby with someone you don't trust? Also, I heard a lot of things he said about me and when we hooked up. He basically ruined my reputation.
So when I got home I told him that I got my period and had been taking hcg supplement that probably affected my test results. He seemed really happy and relieved and told me that he would clear up the rumors. But how can he do that when he was already "telling people"?
I want to confront him about this **** , and tell him the truth, but I have a feeling he'd be very angry and also wouldn't believe me. My hearts really not in it with this baby and the dads a big player. Before he found out I was possibly pregnant he hadn't even talked to me for a few weeks after we hooked up a few times. Even if I do get an abortion, I wish he could be there. But I don't think that's a possibility now. I do want to go get my lucky rosary before if I do , but I don't want to go to his house and seem like I'm trying to be in his business 24/7.
Please do not lecture me about abortion please. I've got enough on my plate. I truly feel alone and like I have ****** up. I even googled if it was possible to turn back time. I feel very emotional and desperate now and I don't want to do anything irrational. I don't know what to do about the situation, did I do the wrong thing? Thanks for the help!

Why do you want him there for anything, Tell him you are pregnant and that you will let him know when he needs to start paying child support. You don't trust each other, he is a player so what is he worth really.

There is much for you to consider, and your confusion is understandable.

Abortion is an option, and certainly worth consideration. To bring a child into this world without the resources financially and otherwise, will have life long consequences.

The man that you were involved with does not sound like good boyfriend material, let alone husband or father material. The two of you together raising a child is not something that your boyfriend seems particularly willing to do, nor does he want to do it.

So considering that you will most likely be on your own- do you have the resources and savings and security to raise a child? Are you emotionally willling and able to be a mother? Are you willing to face all the hardships of being in a place where you don't want to be, for many, many years to come.

There are other options, such as adoption, should you decide to go through with the pregnancy.

I urge you to seek out help and support from women's organizations where you are. Learn as much as you can so you make an informed decision. It is a very difficult decision to make, especially on your own. Having someone skilled in helping you to make the right choice, will make things much easier.