[Wondergirl]

We are all anxiety ridden. I mean my family, although it may also apply to humanity. I think Freud was the one who said that neurosis is the penalty we pay for civilization. He felt that civilization is so good that it's worth the trade-off. Maybe so, but on some days I have my doubts. Anyway, anxiety runs in my family the way noses run on a cold day.

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My dad passed away about six years ago leaving my 82-year-old mother living alone for the first time in her life. She was OK at the beginning, but lately she has been in a mental decline, getting very forgetful, not being able to tell night from day, even telling me she "forgot" to sleep one night. Her psychiatrist said she doesn't have dementia.

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I think she is just worried and alone, and it's hard to think clearly when one is always in panic mode. Having an aide visiting her will solve the problem for now. But I worry too because, if I live to be her age, I won't have someone like me to look after me. I too am alone at 58, with no wife or girlfriend, and no children. I'm left to ponder if I would handle it any better than she, but without even having children to rely on. It's not something I want to think about.

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