8 weeks ago the man I was suppose to marry was killed in a car accident. My whole life has come to a halt, I am numb from head to toe, I think about him every minute of everyday and I cry all the time. Every night I go to bed hoping to not wake up, and every morning I wake up hoping to die. He was my soul mate through and through, we were made for each other and planned our future together. Now I just don't know what to do? I keep hoping that it has all been a mistake & that my angel hasn't gone but I know deep down that he has. We were supposed to get married and I cannot imagine being with anyone other than him. He always promised me that he would never leave me so I always thought he would be there until the day I died but our life together was cut short and I can't bear it. I try and pretend that he is lying next to me in bed but I know he isn't. I just don't know what to do with out him, I talk to him all the time in the hope that his ghost may appear or that he may send me a sign but nothing has come. Please help me I'm close to suicide. Thank you

* ~ * ~ * The Day He Died, I Died Too * ~ * ~ *