MD15goat
Nov 16, 2014, 11:58 AM
I am a female healthcare professional in a monitoring program; I am--was :-(--close to six months sobriety. I have had an excellent recovery and sobriety thus far. Saturday I was going through a cabinet to find something and encountered one of those tiny bottles of hard liquor (tequila.. I am guessing 40% alcohol) it is one of those bottles that probably only has two shots. Anyway, it was an automatic reaction, I didn't even think about it. I am just grateful that there was no more of it, I couldn't have had more alcohol even if I wanted to. I could not fathom it, after all this hard-won sobriety. And I felt like crap afterwards... so discouraging and disappointing. The positive thing is that there is no way in hell I am doing that again. I got nothing from it and truly have no desire to drink--If I flirted with the idea occasionally, this situation has remedied that.
Anyway, the small bottle was at around 2:30pm on Saturday. I test randomly, and likely I will test Monday or Tuesday. If I test Monday, I am very worried it will be positive. I do not know the cutoff EtG level--it is quest diagnostics. If it is 100 I am worried I will test positive Monday or Tuesday. If it is 500 then I feel better it will be a negative test if on Tuesday.
I kind of just want to come clean to my monitoring agency, but I have given them quite the run around over these last 10 months and they will not let me have even one slip-up... I know they will recommend inpatient treatment again (I have already completed over four months of that this year, and I am in an extended outpatient treatment currently).
I guess I am just trying to get a little bit of hope that I will somehow pass.
I am caucasian, healthy liver, 36 years old, 5 feet tall exactly, and I weigh 105 lbs. I am fit and muscular. I run 5-6 miles six days per week.
I take B vitamins daily (although internet info is confusing on that subject)
is there anything else I can realistically do to pass.
Thank you so much for your help.
Anyway, the small bottle was at around 2:30pm on Saturday. I test randomly, and likely I will test Monday or Tuesday. If I test Monday, I am very worried it will be positive. I do not know the cutoff EtG level--it is quest diagnostics. If it is 100 I am worried I will test positive Monday or Tuesday. If it is 500 then I feel better it will be a negative test if on Tuesday.
I kind of just want to come clean to my monitoring agency, but I have given them quite the run around over these last 10 months and they will not let me have even one slip-up... I know they will recommend inpatient treatment again (I have already completed over four months of that this year, and I am in an extended outpatient treatment currently).
I guess I am just trying to get a little bit of hope that I will somehow pass.
I am caucasian, healthy liver, 36 years old, 5 feet tall exactly, and I weigh 105 lbs. I am fit and muscular. I run 5-6 miles six days per week.
I take B vitamins daily (although internet info is confusing on that subject)
is there anything else I can realistically do to pass.
Thank you so much for your help.