itsallokjay
Feb 3, 2013, 09:43 PM
So... I'm shy. He's amazing, she's irrisistable... she's perfect. Blonde, plays dumb-typical 'cute' except-she's not. She pretends to be shy around guys she's into, but has no problem cussing and keeping an attitude with others. Around her girls she's a pottymouth, and 'top b*tch,' but, with him, 'too shy to say anything because I'm innocent,'
He's sweet, nice to everyone, not a player... but... popular... he doesn't care who you are... he's nice. I've been told I have a shot with this boy.. but as soon as blondie takes an interest in him... I'm blown out. She had a crush on my past crush, she went out with him, and broke up with him-i never got to say hi. She is too perfect. I'm not, I get that-and if your going to tell me, I have hard feelings for her, 'big whoop' I know. I hate her. Not just because of him, but because, she's playing him. If she was being herself, and then he was happy, I'll try and be happy for him. But... no, not this way. It hurts... it hurts so much.
Thing is, what can I say or do... to tell this boy... that I won't ditch him? Because I won't. I'll admit, he was my first crush ever-not based off looks. He's just so sweet and caring, he takes time to just, be himself. Jerk yes, cocky yes, huge ego, yes. But, not always, not towards me. I really like him, for who he his, which is why, I can't 'just forget him ' or 'move on' I don't know what he does to be... can't think, can't speak.. can't even sleep. He just... I don't know what it is with him.
What can can I do, to in a way-prove I'm a better option? Because... if I don't do something, and soon... they're already been, like... 'we'll be a couple really soon... ' phase... if I don't do anything, I will be stuck in the friend zone, forever... and ever, and ever, and ever, and ever, and ever. -cuz we're heading off to different schools next year.
Please help me, because I can not give up on him, I can't. I've been told so many times, if blondie didn't exist- he'd see me. But I can't be second forever, not again. Please, please, please, there has to be something.
He's sweet, nice to everyone, not a player... but... popular... he doesn't care who you are... he's nice. I've been told I have a shot with this boy.. but as soon as blondie takes an interest in him... I'm blown out. She had a crush on my past crush, she went out with him, and broke up with him-i never got to say hi. She is too perfect. I'm not, I get that-and if your going to tell me, I have hard feelings for her, 'big whoop' I know. I hate her. Not just because of him, but because, she's playing him. If she was being herself, and then he was happy, I'll try and be happy for him. But... no, not this way. It hurts... it hurts so much.
Thing is, what can I say or do... to tell this boy... that I won't ditch him? Because I won't. I'll admit, he was my first crush ever-not based off looks. He's just so sweet and caring, he takes time to just, be himself. Jerk yes, cocky yes, huge ego, yes. But, not always, not towards me. I really like him, for who he his, which is why, I can't 'just forget him ' or 'move on' I don't know what he does to be... can't think, can't speak.. can't even sleep. He just... I don't know what it is with him.
What can can I do, to in a way-prove I'm a better option? Because... if I don't do something, and soon... they're already been, like... 'we'll be a couple really soon... ' phase... if I don't do anything, I will be stuck in the friend zone, forever... and ever, and ever, and ever, and ever, and ever. -cuz we're heading off to different schools next year.
Please help me, because I can not give up on him, I can't. I've been told so many times, if blondie didn't exist- he'd see me. But I can't be second forever, not again. Please, please, please, there has to be something.