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losteverywhere
May 21, 2012, 02:02 PM
I was in a long-distance relationship that lasted a year and a half. It 'ended' last April but I am still not over my ex-girlfriend. We had an argument that made me block her from talking to me online. The reason I acted the way I did was that she told me she's planning to see other people. That hurt me, a lot. Her reason was that she's unsure of us anymore and that she would like to try and see if we are really meant together... basically something along those lines...

It’s only been a month and I found out that she's already sleeping with the new guy she's with. I am an idiot for looking online to see how she is doing. I’m a moron. Every time I looked, it always brought bad things and yet I seem to still want to hurt myself. I loved her. I made her my world. I didn't expect her to do this to me. She told me I was her 'true love' and that she could never love another person like she loved me. It’s so crap really but I fell for it.

Now I’m trying to be myself again. It’s difficult... I am not weak like this. But somehow this stupid love made me lose myself. I want to be myself again and to function the way I did before she came into my life. Every time, I think about who I was before I met her and that would just confuse me even more. I would start to ask myself if I really was happy before I met her. I just feel so lost.

I tried to go and verbalize my feelings to the selected people I trust. All of them say that it will get better. It’s just... so difficult to apprehend what they're saying. It’s worst at night. I’m so used to spending time with her online. It’s my fault I made her my world. I know that. I just don't know why I can't move on (or focus with my studies) after all she's done to me... I still miss her... but I don’t want to feel like this anymore... I’m tired... I don't really know what I need or what I want. I’m just writing this in hope of someone maybe understanding me. I feel like I want to talk to someone but at the same time there's this thing in my head that I am just finding a substitute for her. I’m so confused... I just really get over her already.

GettingLedOn
May 21, 2012, 06:44 PM
I was in a long distance relationship too, we were family friends for 7 years. We dated for 7 months and she told me that I was too the love of her life. She broke up with me and found somebody new 2 months later. I know the pain that you are feeling, and I know that it feels like it will never ever leave you. Everyone says things get better with time, and its hard to hear. All you can do is roll with the punches and accept that she has moved on. I suggest that you go NC- no contanct, and stop checking up on her. Also talk to your closest friends, it truly does help to get out all of your feelings.

likeblue0015
May 28, 2012, 10:14 PM
Look my mom always told me to not cry or feel depresses over a girl only if there your mom or your gradma. Any ways my mom always told me if the relesionship didn't work that means god has something better for you that you will love more then what you have know

I'm a girl

My mom told me that I should NOT cry for a men only if it was my dad or my grandpa.

talaniman
May 28, 2012, 11:48 PM
The bad news, its only been a month or so. The good news, it will get better in a few more months.

The best news, you can get yourself back and get busy TODAY, rebuilding your life. Break ups suck.