I'm 19 years old and still living with my parents although I'm attending college. I have two younger sisters, making me the oldest.

Growing up, I've gotten the worst punishments from her while she treats my sisters like the angels they aren't. I remember when I was a child, I accidentally dropped a glass of milk so she beat me with a broom. The last time she hit me was when I was about 13. I didn't want to do my laundry right away so she beat me with a wooden spoon until it broke.

After that, she hit me with her words. She would always call me ugly or useless, or sometimes worse.

Now, we're always fighting. When she found out I had broken up with my boyfriend, she called me a whore and kicked me out of the house. However, she let me come back after I stayed with a friend for a few days.

I try my best at being a good daughter. I get good grades at school, help her around the house when she doesn't ask, and take care of her when she's sick when no one else does.

We fight every couple of days now. But there are times where she accepts me and it just makes me feel so wonderful and happy, but it never lasts long. I make one little mistake and she goes back to hating me.

My latest mistake? I didn't know the cafeteria at my little sister's school was closed so she's not letting me use her car to get to college. Honestly, education is my only way out and I think she knows that.

All I want is for her to love me like her daughter and to treat me like one. Whenever I try to tell her this she ignores me or makes fun of me for it.

I just... I just don't know what do do anymore. I've often thought of ending my life just so she can be happy.

Just someone, anyone, please help me.

Wow OK then it is obvous that your mum doesn't trust you and what your doing with your life. Have you ever betrayed her trust

I know it seem hard, but many teens feel this way, when parents are trying to make them learn and mature. When you forgot the cafeteria was closed, what happened to your little sister, did she have to go without food all day till she got home ? Where you suppose to take her something and did not.

Why not work and go to school, buy and have your own car ? When you use her car does she have another car to use ?

And education is important, so you travel by public transit, get a friend to pick you up and learn to be responsible.

wow ok then it is obvous that ur mum doesn't trust you and what ur doing with ur life. Have you ever betrayed her trust

I'm just trying to get out. I don't think I have, well not that I can remember. This all started when I was very little.

I know it seem hard, but many teens feel this way, when parents are trying to make them learn and mature. When you forgot the cafeteria was closed, what happened to your little sister, did she have to go without food all day till she got home ? Where you suppose to take her something and did not.

why not work and go to school, buy and have your own car ? When you use her car does she have another car to use ?

And education is important, so you travel by public transit, get a friend to pick you up and learn to be responsible.

To answer your questions, nothing happened to my little sister she just had to stand outside with a small group of kids. I wasn't the one dropping her off at school that time, my mother was.

I just started working and I'm still in training so I'm not getting paid yet. I'm only working weekends go I can still go to school.

She has a free shuttle to take her to work every morning so no she doesn't have another car to use. I go to school in another city.

I guess I'll just figure something out. Thank you for your time and advice.

Just continue to do well in school so you can graduate. Hopefully yo can get a job and maybe a roommate and move out. The best way to deal with your situation is to do well and move out on your own.

You are an adult now. Find her at a quiet moment some evening alone and sit down and ask her if there is a reason she isn't telling you. Maybe you are not your father's daughter or she isn't sure, or there's something about when and how she got pregnant? It's far fetched, but when it does happen it's often with the first born. You don't need to say any of that, just ask if there's a reason. She may say no regardless, of course.

Your mother sounds like a pretty typical Narcissistic Personality Disorder case. Google Daughter of Narcissistic Mother Golden Child Scapegoat.

Your life is about to change.