Lpstandconfused
Apr 24, 2012, 09:25 PM
I'm 19 years old and still living with my parents although I'm attending college. I have two younger sisters, making me the oldest.
Growing up, I've gotten the worst punishments from her while she treats my sisters like the angels they aren't. I remember when I was a child, I accidentally dropped a glass of milk so she beat me with a broom. The last time she hit me was when I was about 13. I didn't want to do my laundry right away so she beat me with a wooden spoon until it broke.
After that, she hit me with her words. She would always call me ugly or useless, or sometimes worse.
Now, we're always fighting. When she found out I had broken up with my boyfriend, she called me a whore and kicked me out of the house. However, she let me come back after I stayed with a friend for a few days.
I try my best at being a good daughter. I get good grades at school, help her around the house when she doesn't ask, and take care of her when she's sick when no one else does.
We fight every couple of days now. But there are times where she accepts me and it just makes me feel so wonderful and happy, but it never lasts long. I make one little mistake and she goes back to hating me.
My latest mistake? I didn't know the cafeteria at my little sister's school was closed so she's not letting me use her car to get to college. Honestly, education is my only way out and I think she knows that.
All I want is for her to love me like her daughter and to treat me like one. Whenever I try to tell her this she ignores me or makes fun of me for it.
I just... I just don't know what do do anymore. I've often thought of ending my life just so she can be happy.
Just someone, anyone, please help me.
Growing up, I've gotten the worst punishments from her while she treats my sisters like the angels they aren't. I remember when I was a child, I accidentally dropped a glass of milk so she beat me with a broom. The last time she hit me was when I was about 13. I didn't want to do my laundry right away so she beat me with a wooden spoon until it broke.
After that, she hit me with her words. She would always call me ugly or useless, or sometimes worse.
Now, we're always fighting. When she found out I had broken up with my boyfriend, she called me a whore and kicked me out of the house. However, she let me come back after I stayed with a friend for a few days.
I try my best at being a good daughter. I get good grades at school, help her around the house when she doesn't ask, and take care of her when she's sick when no one else does.
We fight every couple of days now. But there are times where she accepts me and it just makes me feel so wonderful and happy, but it never lasts long. I make one little mistake and she goes back to hating me.
My latest mistake? I didn't know the cafeteria at my little sister's school was closed so she's not letting me use her car to get to college. Honestly, education is my only way out and I think she knows that.
All I want is for her to love me like her daughter and to treat me like one. Whenever I try to tell her this she ignores me or makes fun of me for it.
I just... I just don't know what do do anymore. I've often thought of ending my life just so she can be happy.
Just someone, anyone, please help me.