ShannonNealey
Dec 3, 2011, 12:18 AM
I lost my job a few months ago. Along the way, I lost my apartment and my children and now I'm living in a studio hotel apartment. I feel like all the drive has been sucked out of me. My children both hung themselves(my son in December 2009 and my daughter in November 2001) and they are now in the custody of children's services and I am alone.
I've found an apartment in a town 35 miles away, but they don't want to leave our current city. I'm taking the apartment because I can afford it on my benefits and I can finally focus on getting a part-time job and then getting my children back. The problem is, my son is in a hospital and can't come home and my daughter doesn't want to live with me and chose to stay in foster care. I can still see them anytime I want, but on one hand I want them back with me. On the other hand, I don't want them back with me because I can finally focus on myself, something I haven't done in more than 16 years. My son might want to come back home but that's up to the judge and I'm not sure I can manage him--he is bipolar and very violent--but I'm willing to try.
Am I wrong for letting my children go to Children's Services? I am trying my best to get things back on track, but I just feel it would be for the best if I could focus on myself for a little while. My children are almost grown and won't need me anymore in a few years and I need a new focus.
I've found an apartment in a town 35 miles away, but they don't want to leave our current city. I'm taking the apartment because I can afford it on my benefits and I can finally focus on getting a part-time job and then getting my children back. The problem is, my son is in a hospital and can't come home and my daughter doesn't want to live with me and chose to stay in foster care. I can still see them anytime I want, but on one hand I want them back with me. On the other hand, I don't want them back with me because I can finally focus on myself, something I haven't done in more than 16 years. My son might want to come back home but that's up to the judge and I'm not sure I can manage him--he is bipolar and very violent--but I'm willing to try.
Am I wrong for letting my children go to Children's Services? I am trying my best to get things back on track, but I just feel it would be for the best if I could focus on myself for a little while. My children are almost grown and won't need me anymore in a few years and I need a new focus.