looiaili
Dec 20, 2010, 08:32 PM
I want to ask smtg that concern me.I am a married women 31 with 3 kids, I got married when I was 23. I was very happy. However when I was 27 I got involved in an affair. The affair lasted 3 months. I ended it because I was pregnant with my husband child. I was guilty and sad. But realized that happen because me and my husband we argue a lot. We also have a huge differences. e.g. different family background and education level. My husband is my 2nd boyfriend. I went steady with him after my 1st boyfriend broke up with me. So I ended up with my husband now because I wanted to revenge to my 1st boyfriend that dumped me. After the 1st affair I vowed and promise not to get involve again. Last year I meet a gym guy and chatted with him online. And we finally meet upjust last 2 week for sex. He did not call me after and I also ignore him. I am very sad because I broke my promise to jesus of not to cheat again. And at the same time I'm having bad depression because I think I love this guy. He already has a GF and I told him I was married. He didn't care. I suppose is just for sex. But I missed him teribblly after sex, I just wish he could call me sometimes. But he never. At the same time I know I did wrong. I'm just confused. I just want to find someone to love and someone that love me as well. *** advise.