I want to ask smtg that concern me.I am a married women 31 with 3 kids, I got married when I was 23. I was very happy. However when I was 27 I got involved in an affair. The affair lasted 3 months. I ended it because I was pregnant with my husband child. I was guilty and sad. But realized that happen because me and my husband we argue a lot. We also have a huge differences. e.g. different family background and education level. My husband is my 2nd boyfriend. I went steady with him after my 1st boyfriend broke up with me. So I ended up with my husband now because I wanted to revenge to my 1st boyfriend that dumped me. After the 1st affair I vowed and promise not to get involve again. Last year I meet a gym guy and chatted with him online. And we finally meet upjust last 2 week for sex. He did not call me after and I also ignore him. I am very sad because I broke my promise to jesus of not to cheat again. And at the same time I'm having bad depression because I think I love this guy. He already has a GF and I told him I was married. He didn't care. I suppose is just for sex. But I missed him teribblly after sex, I just wish he could call me sometimes. But he never. At the same time I know I did wrong. I'm just confused. I just want to find someone to love and someone that love me as well. *** advise.

First off capitalizing words aren't hard.
Secondly, you are married, have kids and you have cheated multiple times.

Get out, you are ultimately hurting your husband and kids because you're too weak to confront your husband. You try to justify your actions by placing blame on education levels and background. Where was this justification when you got married?

Get out now! Give some respect to your family!

This is your second affair. I'd be less concerned about the promise you broke to Jesus and more concerned about the promises you broke to your husband and children.

If you want to sleep around, get a divorce. As long as you're married, keep your legs crossed where other men are concerned. It's not hard. It's called self control. :(