Tif4m30w
Sep 3, 2010, 07:41 AM
Ever since I can remember I never had that many friends. It may have something to do with the fact I moved so much. But when I finally stopped moving in High school, I would get acquaintances, and when I thought I'd get a friend, they'd disappear in a week, and ignore me. I was very depressed all through high school, and very alone.
After high school I got a boyfriend who I followed to LA for (his) college, and for three years supported. Now we're engaged and he's got a great job, and is putting me through school. While at home I am very happy, at school I'm miserable. I do like what I'm studying, and most of the time I can absorb myself in it, but every time I talk to someone, teachers included, I feel as if I'm being regarded as insane.. One girl in most of my classes is the only exception, but all she does is talk about her best friends, which she has about 15 of (no joke). And I will listen for half a day, not saying a word and the second I say anything about me, she will interrupt and keep talking about herself.. If anything, she makes it worse..
I feel the only way I can overcome this is to stop caring. I have tried, but after 8 hours a day and a couple months, it becomes difficult.. Is there a better way to not care or just get over it? I don't want to feel so insignificant, lonely and insane.. (and I cannot talk to my fiancé when I'm at school, because he's at work)
After high school I got a boyfriend who I followed to LA for (his) college, and for three years supported. Now we're engaged and he's got a great job, and is putting me through school. While at home I am very happy, at school I'm miserable. I do like what I'm studying, and most of the time I can absorb myself in it, but every time I talk to someone, teachers included, I feel as if I'm being regarded as insane.. One girl in most of my classes is the only exception, but all she does is talk about her best friends, which she has about 15 of (no joke). And I will listen for half a day, not saying a word and the second I say anything about me, she will interrupt and keep talking about herself.. If anything, she makes it worse..
I feel the only way I can overcome this is to stop caring. I have tried, but after 8 hours a day and a couple months, it becomes difficult.. Is there a better way to not care or just get over it? I don't want to feel so insignificant, lonely and insane.. (and I cannot talk to my fiancé when I'm at school, because he's at work)