lovefool456
Jul 21, 2010, 09:17 AM
My boyfriend broke up with me 5 months ago – we were together almost 2 years, were really in love with each other and felt like we were each others soul mates. Lots of stuff happened while we were together and we started to grow apart as arguments started towards the end of the relationship. At the beginning I do feel like I mistreated him in a lot of ways he didn’t deserve and I did cheat on him – he knew this.
We stayed together and almost broke up a few times towards the end but we loved each other too much to be without one another but in the end it got too much for him and he split up with me even though he maintains he felt forced and didn’t want to. He said we would never get back together because he knew it just didn’t work in the end and that I should move on. For the first few months, I found it unbearable and contacted him so many times begging for another chance and telling him how much I loved him, he replied every time but eventually started to get really annoyed.
I was devastated and ended up having a one night stand with some idiot guy because I felt worthless. My ex found out about this and went mental saying he hated my guts and he never wants to speak to me again and that he regrets ever going out with me. I messaged him multiple times since this and he has always replied even though it was full of anger, he still replied.
So now I’m not sure where I stand, I know he obviously still cares or he would ignore me – I really want to get back together with him at some point but I’m not sure there's any chance of that now? I know he says he hates me but I know deep down he still loves me and feel that is a cover up for his feelings because he's mad.
We stayed together and almost broke up a few times towards the end but we loved each other too much to be without one another but in the end it got too much for him and he split up with me even though he maintains he felt forced and didn’t want to. He said we would never get back together because he knew it just didn’t work in the end and that I should move on. For the first few months, I found it unbearable and contacted him so many times begging for another chance and telling him how much I loved him, he replied every time but eventually started to get really annoyed.
I was devastated and ended up having a one night stand with some idiot guy because I felt worthless. My ex found out about this and went mental saying he hated my guts and he never wants to speak to me again and that he regrets ever going out with me. I messaged him multiple times since this and he has always replied even though it was full of anger, he still replied.
So now I’m not sure where I stand, I know he obviously still cares or he would ignore me – I really want to get back together with him at some point but I’m not sure there's any chance of that now? I know he says he hates me but I know deep down he still loves me and feel that is a cover up for his feelings because he's mad.