iwouldeatyoualive
Jul 3, 2010, 06:39 PM
Hello, this is my story
I don't know exactly what I was getting myself into when I said yes to him that night he called on a restricted number all the time, not once did he forget I got fed up with it but he didn't care. He wanted to hide his real identity about almost everything, the only thing I knew about him was his so called name, his voice, the way he described himself though my best friend personally knew him and some of his personality I know I sound stupid for becoming his girlfriend when I barely knew anything about him but I did he told me everything a girl would want to hear he was my, I guess "edward" but just not so calm and serious at most, and no face to face contact he told me he was a "vampire". He told me he snuck into my room at night and watched me sleep he would sit on my tree and watch me everyday (he was my biggest stalker ever) he said the most romantic things to me and always made me feel special I fell so hard for him I couldn't control it and I don't know why. I once wrote him a long letter about how I feel about him it disappeared and I couldn't find it anywhere I saw it by my door about 3 months later. I'm assuming he brought it back he broke up with me twice cause we only were together twice. I for some reason loved him so much, I would hear him singing I don't know where but it sounded like he was outside my window when I checked nothing was there but a street light.
I felt his touch and sometimes still do. I felt his breath by my ear, everyday for about 5 months I felt like he was watching me he said he was. I would hear footsteps on my roof and someone jump off it he said it was him even on a rainy day. Looking back now I was so in love with him he ended it all by saying he never loved me and didn't call me for about a week, then called me back and said I always loved you, I just never felt good enough for you. The crazy times he put me through were: I had many many sleepless nights staring out my window was something I did the most but, one day I started to watch TV I sat in front of it for several hours...
(I know that's really bad) anyway I looked up and out my window and saw a black figured like person rocking back and forth on my tree so I went into my bathroom to hide and came out because my cell phone started to ring it was my friend from Texas there it'd be 5 am here it was 4 am. When I said hello all I heard was heavy breathing each time I spoke, so I hung up. Then my TV started to turn off and turn on by its self and change to black and white. I asked my friend if he called me, he said he didn't, nor did he have any track of it on his phone. I had major depression over what he did to me. He made me feel literally empty and so alone and cold he told me to move on and love someone else before his last call. It was the hardest thing I've ever done, I got through 5 months later. I still think about him, I still remember what he did and I want to I still care about him, but he put me through such misery and I really didn't deserve any of it. Im really nice and caring... really, I'm a vegetarian and wouldn't harm any living thing if it hurt me or just for my amusement or my purposes I'm usaully funny and full of life but he destroyed that for a long time. He as well told me he got a tattoo of my name with really fancy letters across his chest my friend saw it she said it was beautiful other than that I miss him he always made me laugh until all that happened,
I now moved on I have a boyfriend and yes I know what he looks like and everything. (: Anyway, I want to know if I did go insane was that even real because it really didn't seem like it, it was all the pain that told me that it was real its not logical for someone to have such a strength or force to do such things right?
I don't know exactly what I was getting myself into when I said yes to him that night he called on a restricted number all the time, not once did he forget I got fed up with it but he didn't care. He wanted to hide his real identity about almost everything, the only thing I knew about him was his so called name, his voice, the way he described himself though my best friend personally knew him and some of his personality I know I sound stupid for becoming his girlfriend when I barely knew anything about him but I did he told me everything a girl would want to hear he was my, I guess "edward" but just not so calm and serious at most, and no face to face contact he told me he was a "vampire". He told me he snuck into my room at night and watched me sleep he would sit on my tree and watch me everyday (he was my biggest stalker ever) he said the most romantic things to me and always made me feel special I fell so hard for him I couldn't control it and I don't know why. I once wrote him a long letter about how I feel about him it disappeared and I couldn't find it anywhere I saw it by my door about 3 months later. I'm assuming he brought it back he broke up with me twice cause we only were together twice. I for some reason loved him so much, I would hear him singing I don't know where but it sounded like he was outside my window when I checked nothing was there but a street light.
I felt his touch and sometimes still do. I felt his breath by my ear, everyday for about 5 months I felt like he was watching me he said he was. I would hear footsteps on my roof and someone jump off it he said it was him even on a rainy day. Looking back now I was so in love with him he ended it all by saying he never loved me and didn't call me for about a week, then called me back and said I always loved you, I just never felt good enough for you. The crazy times he put me through were: I had many many sleepless nights staring out my window was something I did the most but, one day I started to watch TV I sat in front of it for several hours...
(I know that's really bad) anyway I looked up and out my window and saw a black figured like person rocking back and forth on my tree so I went into my bathroom to hide and came out because my cell phone started to ring it was my friend from Texas there it'd be 5 am here it was 4 am. When I said hello all I heard was heavy breathing each time I spoke, so I hung up. Then my TV started to turn off and turn on by its self and change to black and white. I asked my friend if he called me, he said he didn't, nor did he have any track of it on his phone. I had major depression over what he did to me. He made me feel literally empty and so alone and cold he told me to move on and love someone else before his last call. It was the hardest thing I've ever done, I got through 5 months later. I still think about him, I still remember what he did and I want to I still care about him, but he put me through such misery and I really didn't deserve any of it. Im really nice and caring... really, I'm a vegetarian and wouldn't harm any living thing if it hurt me or just for my amusement or my purposes I'm usaully funny and full of life but he destroyed that for a long time. He as well told me he got a tattoo of my name with really fancy letters across his chest my friend saw it she said it was beautiful other than that I miss him he always made me laugh until all that happened,
I now moved on I have a boyfriend and yes I know what he looks like and everything. (: Anyway, I want to know if I did go insane was that even real because it really didn't seem like it, it was all the pain that told me that it was real its not logical for someone to have such a strength or force to do such things right?