terry-heart
Mar 4, 2010, 06:05 PM
Well.. Hi! I'm 19 years old and english is not my native language so forgive any mistakes.
I don t know what to do -obviously!
I'm not sure if I ve ever been in love.. I guess maybe I felt really strong for 3 guys but I don t know..
Now..
There s this guy in my life. He s a friend of my best friend.. I felt for him so bad..
I thought he had feelings too, but he is so shy.. and maybe he thought I liked another friend of my sister I don t know..
he s in a different city than me and so I kind of forget about him at times.. but when I see him.. I feel so attracted to him -in a psuchological level mainly. And he makes me smile silly.
He s got a girlfriend now (she hitted on him!), but still when we met again I could feel this "vibe".. and when I'm around he won t talk about her.. (it s a whole story to tell you everything he s done and all the signs I, at least thought, was getting..
Problem is that I'm too shy to talk.. he s away.. and I don t know (what a surprise again!)
Lately in my life there s this other guy too.
He is about to break up with his girlfriend(who though is in love with him and there s something wrong with her health -yeah I feel like a total !) and he seems to be into me.
When guy No2 talks to me through msn (we ve only seen each other twice but he s best friend s with my best friend s boyfriend) I can t feel my stomach!
But I don t know..
Is it the fact that I need to feel loved? (I am beautiful -that s what pple around me tell and show me, though I have low self confidence- but lately it feels like I ve been alone for so long.. and I need someone to hold on to)
As for guy no one.. well. When he left I cried publickly
and when I see him its like.. he s filling a hole I didn't t know I had
But on the other hand I am also an "actress"..
I maybe make myself feel certain emotions in an extended level just for the thrill of it!. I DON T KNOW
I M CONFUSED... Could some one please help me? =(
I don t know what to do -obviously!
I'm not sure if I ve ever been in love.. I guess maybe I felt really strong for 3 guys but I don t know..
Now..
There s this guy in my life. He s a friend of my best friend.. I felt for him so bad..
I thought he had feelings too, but he is so shy.. and maybe he thought I liked another friend of my sister I don t know..
he s in a different city than me and so I kind of forget about him at times.. but when I see him.. I feel so attracted to him -in a psuchological level mainly. And he makes me smile silly.
He s got a girlfriend now (she hitted on him!), but still when we met again I could feel this "vibe".. and when I'm around he won t talk about her.. (it s a whole story to tell you everything he s done and all the signs I, at least thought, was getting..
Problem is that I'm too shy to talk.. he s away.. and I don t know (what a surprise again!)
Lately in my life there s this other guy too.
He is about to break up with his girlfriend(who though is in love with him and there s something wrong with her health -yeah I feel like a total !) and he seems to be into me.
When guy No2 talks to me through msn (we ve only seen each other twice but he s best friend s with my best friend s boyfriend) I can t feel my stomach!
But I don t know..
Is it the fact that I need to feel loved? (I am beautiful -that s what pple around me tell and show me, though I have low self confidence- but lately it feels like I ve been alone for so long.. and I need someone to hold on to)
As for guy no one.. well. When he left I cried publickly
and when I see him its like.. he s filling a hole I didn't t know I had
But on the other hand I am also an "actress"..
I maybe make myself feel certain emotions in an extended level just for the thrill of it!. I DON T KNOW
I M CONFUSED... Could some one please help me? =(