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a_1612
May 21, 2009, 11:48 AM
I'm 16, and I'm nearly always a really happy person. I'm always finding new things to enjoy in my life and mostly I think that nothing is worth getting upset about because life is too precious to waste by being miserable.
But sometimes, I hit rock-bottom and I just can't stop crying. Last month, one of my friends killed himself and it shattered my world as nothing like that had ever happened to me before. It feels like there's a giant hole in my life where he used to be, and I miss him so much.
I also seriously messed things up with the only person I've ever really liked, long story, but I'm still completely in love with him, but now he has a new girlfriend. I've told him that I still feel the same and we agreed that we'll always have feelings for each other, but I really miss him and hate myself for the fact that it's my fault we're not together anymore.

So I guess I have got reason to be occasionally upset, but what I can't understand is why most of the time I can handle it perfectly well and deal with it completely rationally, but sometimes I lose all reasoning and can't stop crying and just feel like its all so hopeless. Help?

I wish
May 21, 2009, 01:11 PM
You've been through a lot, you can't expect yourself to be happy all the time. Allow yourself to feel the way you need to feel. Spend some time doing things for yourself instead about worrying about another guy. You need to take care of yourself first.

carly_may_13
Jul 14, 2009, 01:01 AM
Sometimes you just need to cry, but feeling hopeless about everything is not that good. There is always something you can do. My advice would be to watch "What the bleep do we know?" it changed my life. Good luck.

Khmerbodian
Jul 16, 2009, 12:03 PM
I know exactly how you feel. I also lost a good friend to suicide.Just don't give up! sometimes you hit rock bottom it happens to everyone, but you have to learn to crawl and pull yourself back up again! It will only make your stronger and more wise in the end!

Khmerbodian
Jul 16, 2009, 12:05 PM
A way I cope with my friend's suicide is I pray for her every single night as I'm going to sleep. I'm not a very religious person, but it makes me feel a little better to hope that she can hear me praying for her. I just hold on to the hope that she is in a better place and she isn't sad and suffering anymore.You can always keep your friend alive in your heart and your memories with them can never die!