a_1612
May 21, 2009, 11:48 AM
I'm 16, and I'm nearly always a really happy person. I'm always finding new things to enjoy in my life and mostly I think that nothing is worth getting upset about because life is too precious to waste by being miserable.
But sometimes, I hit rock-bottom and I just can't stop crying. Last month, one of my friends killed himself and it shattered my world as nothing like that had ever happened to me before. It feels like there's a giant hole in my life where he used to be, and I miss him so much.
I also seriously messed things up with the only person I've ever really liked, long story, but I'm still completely in love with him, but now he has a new girlfriend. I've told him that I still feel the same and we agreed that we'll always have feelings for each other, but I really miss him and hate myself for the fact that it's my fault we're not together anymore.
So I guess I have got reason to be occasionally upset, but what I can't understand is why most of the time I can handle it perfectly well and deal with it completely rationally, but sometimes I lose all reasoning and can't stop crying and just feel like its all so hopeless. Help?
But sometimes, I hit rock-bottom and I just can't stop crying. Last month, one of my friends killed himself and it shattered my world as nothing like that had ever happened to me before. It feels like there's a giant hole in my life where he used to be, and I miss him so much.
I also seriously messed things up with the only person I've ever really liked, long story, but I'm still completely in love with him, but now he has a new girlfriend. I've told him that I still feel the same and we agreed that we'll always have feelings for each other, but I really miss him and hate myself for the fact that it's my fault we're not together anymore.
So I guess I have got reason to be occasionally upset, but what I can't understand is why most of the time I can handle it perfectly well and deal with it completely rationally, but sometimes I lose all reasoning and can't stop crying and just feel like its all so hopeless. Help?