Flyflyaway
Jan 13, 2009, 04:57 PM
Seven long, hard months has passed since my girl and I split up. We met the day before New Years eve and never parted since. She liked me a lot at first, I was very skeptical to jump into something too fast. I let fate lead the way. I was having a rough time financially recovering from a major break up one year prior. I LOST EVERYTHING, except for my will and fierce determination to make it. The income was not enough and I knew that, but I made it work. When I met her, she blew me away. She had a fabulous job and made more then I'd make given another 10yrs. I made sure I paid for my things. I made that very clear from the get go. 2 months into the relationship, my feelings for her grew more. I like this girl, I really really like her. So it was bliss, until I got a dreaded email from one of my roomates. We need you to start looking for another place as of march 1st we have to be out, the house sold. I was stunned!!
I had no intentions of living with my NEW girlfriend at all. I stressed and stressed as I had no money for a down payment and no other friends. It was looking really bad. She said, You know I would be more then willng to help you. You could stay here for free. I IMMMEDIATELY said NO! A couples weeks went by I finally broke down and said okay. I moved in and things were okay for a little while, I also told her Id give her rent money. She knew my financial issues at the time. The months wore on and I noticed her becoming distant. She said, well you said you'd give me rent money. I felt as small as a pea. I said I know, but I knew I couldn't afford too. Soon... I realized the intimacy left weeks ago. She said, she didn't have the drive due to her hysterectomy and past sexual abuse as a child. I worked with that, consoled her and more. FInally I knew the only way for this to survive was to move out. We both were okay with this decision. ON move out day, she had a really nasty attitude and I ended up moving all my stuff out on my own. Later on that day, I found out she took me off her myspace, that's how I found out we were done. Now that's low! After all this, we HAD AMAZING CHEMISTRY. Now Im dating, she is dating and every other month or so we send each other an email. I'm still lost, 7 months later. She really completed me, but also hurt me in some ways too. I miss her so much.:(
I had no intentions of living with my NEW girlfriend at all. I stressed and stressed as I had no money for a down payment and no other friends. It was looking really bad. She said, You know I would be more then willng to help you. You could stay here for free. I IMMMEDIATELY said NO! A couples weeks went by I finally broke down and said okay. I moved in and things were okay for a little while, I also told her Id give her rent money. She knew my financial issues at the time. The months wore on and I noticed her becoming distant. She said, well you said you'd give me rent money. I felt as small as a pea. I said I know, but I knew I couldn't afford too. Soon... I realized the intimacy left weeks ago. She said, she didn't have the drive due to her hysterectomy and past sexual abuse as a child. I worked with that, consoled her and more. FInally I knew the only way for this to survive was to move out. We both were okay with this decision. ON move out day, she had a really nasty attitude and I ended up moving all my stuff out on my own. Later on that day, I found out she took me off her myspace, that's how I found out we were done. Now that's low! After all this, we HAD AMAZING CHEMISTRY. Now Im dating, she is dating and every other month or so we send each other an email. I'm still lost, 7 months later. She really completed me, but also hurt me in some ways too. I miss her so much.:(