homeworkgirl
Dec 21, 2008, 08:08 PM
I can't be angry in front of my boyfriend. And I never told him when I feel hurt. That is because I don't want to lose him. I don't have the ability to be angry to a man I love.
I already failed my dream that my first boyfriend could be my husband. I almost died when I broke up with my first boyfriend. I couldn't date lots of guys and gain smart experiences. I know I am always a stupid girl.
Now I just hate myself I already love my second boyfriend. If I had a chance to be back, I will not love a person easily.
When my parents let me set up standards for a husband, I told them I don't have standards. Their standards, such as high soci-economic situation, handsome, decent family and education background, are ingored by me. I just want him to be a responsible person and faithful to me. I am a television broadcasting major. And I don't care if later I really become a host while he is just a common worker. I just want him to love me and our kids later and never have affairs.
I was told by my friends that I am cheap and no guys would care about such a girl like me because I always endure. They told me I was not equal in a relationship with a guy.
But I can't break up many times. Sometimes I really want to die. But I have promised my mom that I won't end my life for her. I just regret that I already love him now.
I already failed my dream that my first boyfriend could be my husband. I almost died when I broke up with my first boyfriend. I couldn't date lots of guys and gain smart experiences. I know I am always a stupid girl.
Now I just hate myself I already love my second boyfriend. If I had a chance to be back, I will not love a person easily.
When my parents let me set up standards for a husband, I told them I don't have standards. Their standards, such as high soci-economic situation, handsome, decent family and education background, are ingored by me. I just want him to be a responsible person and faithful to me. I am a television broadcasting major. And I don't care if later I really become a host while he is just a common worker. I just want him to love me and our kids later and never have affairs.
I was told by my friends that I am cheap and no guys would care about such a girl like me because I always endure. They told me I was not equal in a relationship with a guy.
But I can't break up many times. Sometimes I really want to die. But I have promised my mom that I won't end my life for her. I just regret that I already love him now.