chickenwing
Nov 6, 2008, 12:43 PM
I am 18 years old and there is this man that has truly taken my heart and doesn't even know it. He is much older than me (about 20+ years) and I met him when I was helping him coach his little daughter's team. He is married and I feel absolutely awful to feel this way about him and I know I shouldn't. I ask myself over and over if I'm just a little nuts or if I'm just a fool. But I have never felt like this for someone before ever. I know I'm young, and most people would say that I don't know what love is. Maybe I don't, but what if this was it? I've never felt like this before about anyone. We just connect and we instatntly clicked. I feel the best when I am just near him, I cannot express what I feel in words! What the heck do I do? Because I know he is married and has children, so I should just turn the other way right? Let me tell you, I have tried, but have gotten no where. There is even this cute guy my age that is an awesome, awesome person, but I just have to interest to pursue, because this coach that I help is always on my mind, and in my heart. WHAT DO I DO? I am so confused as to why I feel like this! Is it security? Maturity? Love? Could it really be love? Could someone please help me out a bit, or at least relate to this most outlandish situation?