too much
Oct 4, 2007, 08:07 AM
Hi! I don't now how to say this... but here it goes.I'm been on medication for 2 years now I can now handle most of my daily routine. The question is this is my 2nd marriage which I'm very happy with my husband and child.The thing is when I was 19 years old ,married to a person he felt I would stay for the sake of money. I couldn't handle his extra marital affairs.
My own family wanted me to stay with him for the same reason(money)Of course their was a child involved. As the time came I asked my 2 sisters if they would help me raise my child which they also lived with their children in my our mothers house, They never gave me an answer,so I took the next alternative which was to get full cosdy by having the father's name remove as a fraud. Marriage papers filed in court. Stated he was from the u.s.a. He was never from u.s.a As I found out Thur my work and by that time I was already pregnant. As you see their was a lot of lying going on and I could have kept the child but my mother didn't want me to go get an annulment. When the child was born I never felt connected even to the day I gave the child to the father cause I didn't feel love,didn't want to take chance of hurting him I was never was ready for a child and the father and I had spoke about this knowing if we could never make it though our marriage. That his family was close among themselves ;which was better then I could say of my family.Divorce day came told my lawyer I want him to take the child-full cusidity.but papers came back joint-cusidity.I didn't want to struggle and of corse didn't want the child to struggle with my lacking of motherhood which I didn't have.3 years later I called the ex said I'm leaving town and met someone to start a new life. I never would considered that my new sister in-law would set me up to see from close distance to see my past, twice it was done to me.For some reason I didn't notice the ex he was standing arms length and never did I realized who it was.Just noticing an anger on this persons face until I return home 6 months later I realized who it was. And how was anger I was at her.I KNOW WHAT I DID IN THE PAST WAS A NO WIN SITUATION HAD TO THINK OF WHAT KIND OF MOTHER I WOULD HAVE BEEN AND THE Safety OF THE CHILD.Now seeing on the internet the child is well educated and loved.But now my sister-in-law also had spike my drink with some kind of hard drug when her brother and I were in town. My husband has know since we were married of my past except of child and giving the child to the father and also knows of the set-up twice by his sister.Now she want to get our teenage child to go over there and of course that would be in the summer w/out us.I afraid that his sister will set her up too.My husband said she'll not go ;but didn't tell his sister.I said if our child goes I go too. I chose to treat my past as an adoption and I was happy I made the right choice .and that was my discission- not my husband sister.So when she was here this tried to be coyed by asking any regrets w/out looking me in the eue.Iwould say I do not have regrets I only make discissions.
My own family wanted me to stay with him for the same reason(money)Of course their was a child involved. As the time came I asked my 2 sisters if they would help me raise my child which they also lived with their children in my our mothers house, They never gave me an answer,so I took the next alternative which was to get full cosdy by having the father's name remove as a fraud. Marriage papers filed in court. Stated he was from the u.s.a. He was never from u.s.a As I found out Thur my work and by that time I was already pregnant. As you see their was a lot of lying going on and I could have kept the child but my mother didn't want me to go get an annulment. When the child was born I never felt connected even to the day I gave the child to the father cause I didn't feel love,didn't want to take chance of hurting him I was never was ready for a child and the father and I had spoke about this knowing if we could never make it though our marriage. That his family was close among themselves ;which was better then I could say of my family.Divorce day came told my lawyer I want him to take the child-full cusidity.but papers came back joint-cusidity.I didn't want to struggle and of corse didn't want the child to struggle with my lacking of motherhood which I didn't have.3 years later I called the ex said I'm leaving town and met someone to start a new life. I never would considered that my new sister in-law would set me up to see from close distance to see my past, twice it was done to me.For some reason I didn't notice the ex he was standing arms length and never did I realized who it was.Just noticing an anger on this persons face until I return home 6 months later I realized who it was. And how was anger I was at her.I KNOW WHAT I DID IN THE PAST WAS A NO WIN SITUATION HAD TO THINK OF WHAT KIND OF MOTHER I WOULD HAVE BEEN AND THE Safety OF THE CHILD.Now seeing on the internet the child is well educated and loved.But now my sister-in-law also had spike my drink with some kind of hard drug when her brother and I were in town. My husband has know since we were married of my past except of child and giving the child to the father and also knows of the set-up twice by his sister.Now she want to get our teenage child to go over there and of course that would be in the summer w/out us.I afraid that his sister will set her up too.My husband said she'll not go ;but didn't tell his sister.I said if our child goes I go too. I chose to treat my past as an adoption and I was happy I made the right choice .and that was my discission- not my husband sister.So when she was here this tried to be coyed by asking any regrets w/out looking me in the eue.Iwould say I do not have regrets I only make discissions.